The Littlest Thing

Contented.

2011-05-31T21:20:00.004+08:00

My life is so contented.

I like the way it is.

At least, I know there is something for me to do when I wake up every morning.

Everyday has a mission. I feel so good when mission accomplished.

Stepping into another stage of life, though I always miss how lovely school days were, I did not regret on making a choice of entering the society. Do you know how the world look like out there? How many types of people out there? How many things you never experience before?

In the day, the hardest thing to deal with is not the job itself, but the people. My seniors gave me a very precious word, 'P.r.e.t.e.n.d'. When you know something, pretend that you don't know. When you don't know something, pretend that you know a little bit. It truly helps.

Somebody said that I am some sort of street smart. Result of googling - A street smart person isn't actually stubborn, but actually listens to shit and understands shit. Thanks! However, this street smart people might fail at times, whereby some annoying persons commented that I don't respect the superiors, my over-confidence screws things up. Well, I don't really know what is going on with all there comments, but hey thanks! I will improve.

Law of survivor, when you are just a small potato, listen and do things their way. When you grow slightly bigger, make people do it your way. =)

After started the working life, I find myself I see things differently.

To conclude all this, I hate my job, but I love working.

爱过。等过。难过

2011-04-10T23:11:00.004+08:00

丁噹-你為什麼說謊

這次我走開再沒有話要說出來

我不想再期待走下去還能多精彩

我不瞭解你怎能心安

也抓不住你的倔強

可是我知道你你為什麼說謊

你說你還在一分一秒也沒走開

我想留在這裏可是這一切已太晚

我不能再像從前一樣

為我們的明天瘋狂

你不必解釋你為什麼說謊

你不能說我沒有愛過說我沒等過難過
我也想說也許能重來我卻還是沉默
你一直問我的心到底在不在
問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛

而我的淚怎麼就流下來

我也能被感動

2011-03-28T00:15:00.003+08:00

我太難被感動-藍奕邦

我也知這麼拘朿使你太辛苦　一番友善亦被狠狠謝絕
是我天生的那種個性太頑強　不喜愛憐憫也絕不信人
然而緩緩行前便看穿　其實我也有著脆弱靈魂
只恐怕你會是曾經傷過我的那類人

@都只怪我太難被感動　面目實在冰凍
我也罵我沒有用
其實對你那樣冷漠　我也覺得心痛
然而誰人能知　我也有著苦衷@

我也能被感動　但是並未可以　去接受你的抱擁
想卻未敢去動容　或者我太過惶恐

也許分不清楚根本誰是真心　逼使我杜絕陌生者步近

但我很小心看守的那些尊嚴　偏偏帶來我那份空虛感
如何形容才能讓你知　其實我也有著脆弱靈魂
只恐怕太軟弱贏取不到你一分好感

Repeat @

我也能被感動　願望是被寵愛　更渴望你的抱擁
哭到自己也臉紅　就此撲向你懷中

可知我也渴望被感動　實在極度需要
去接受你的抱擁
哭到自己也臉紅　立即撲向你懷

言不由衷。身不由己。

What Are Words

2011-03-04T01:10:00.003+08:00

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

How every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me

And I know I'm meant to be where I am

And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side

I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near

Anywhere you go, I'll be there

And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep

Cuz what kind of guy would I be

If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

The singer, Chris Medina, he is not officially a celebrity yet, but if you do follow the latest american idol, he is one of the potential contestant with pitiful history. He was about to get married with his fiance, unfortunately, due to a car accident, his fiance was suffered from brain damage, and she is now nearly paralyzed. After all, he is still looking after her. tough but sweet. at least, they are still together. and i really hope that, they could be together forever.

This is the song purposely wrote for him to sing.

What are words, to you?

Movie. Life. Story

2011-03-02T22:17:00.001+08:00

Just so you know, I heart watching movies a lot! My favourite leisure time activity.

Actually, i do learn a lot from watching movies. The storyline of a movie, can be the imaginary of the script write or the director, it can be also description of real life story. We might not be encountering so many special events, unforeseen circumstances, people or places. Thanks to those movie production teams, they bring out and present something which we don't normally see.

What a movie that can impressed the most, is the quote/s in their lines to express the message/s of the movie. Most of them went unnoticed. Well, it might be inspiring, touching and motivating. At least, to me, they are.

Let's see.

When In Rome

Honey, you cannot learn from my mistakes. You gonna have to go out there and make your own. You can get your heart broken, or, you can have the greatest love affair, the world has ever known. But you'll not gonna know, unless you try.- Beth's Father

Okay, maybe not. But that is because I have a relationship with my job. I love my job. And when I find the guy that I like more than my job, that's how I know that he is the one.- Beth

Step Up 3

Some famous guy once said, to travel is better than to arrive, and i was like whaat!? Cause i used to think that theres only one path to take you to where you wanna be in life, but if you choose that one path, doesn't mean you have to abandon all the other ones. I realize that it's actually what happens along the way that counts; the stumbles, the falls and the friendships. It's the journey, not the destination. I guess, just trust the future will work itself out like it's supposed to.-Moose

People dance because dance can change things. One move, can bring people together. One move, can make you believe like there's something more. One move, can set a whole generation free. -Moose

Shaolin

随缘一生，一生随缘
人懵的时候，连猪都不如
金子和烂泥哪个更有价值？要是给你一颗种子呢？

Sex and The City 3

Take tradition and decorate it your own way. -Carrie

Inception

You're waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You can't be sure where it will take you. But it doesn't matter - because we'll be together.-Mal

Don't you want to take a leap of faith? Or become an old man, filled with regret, waiting to die alone!

She locked away a secret, deep inside herself, something she once knew to be true... but chose to forget. Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange.

Rapunzel-Tangled Tale

Hook Hand Thug: Go, live your dream.

Rapunzel: I’ve been looking out of a window for eighteen years, dreaming about what I might feel like when those lights rise in the sky. What if it’s not everything I dreamed it would be?
Flynn Rider: It will be.
Rapunzel: And what if it is? What do I do then?
Flynn Rider: Well,that’s the good part I guess. You get to go find a new dream.

Flynn Rider: You were my new dream.
Rapunzel: And you were mine.

Eat. Pray. Love

Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.-Liz

You don't need a man, you need a champion.-Felipe

We call it "dolce far niente", the sweetness of doing nothing.-Giovanni

Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself.-Felipe

Dear John

The problem with time, I've learned, whether it's those first two weeks I got to spend with you, or the final two months I got to spend with him, eventually time always runs out. I have no idea where you are out there in the world, John. But I understand that I lost the right to know these things long ago. No matter how many years go by, I know one thing to be as true as ever was - I'll see you soon then.-Savannah

Burlesque

Opportunities like that don’t stick around forever. Every opportunity has a shelf life -Sean

Black Swan

The only person standing in your way is you.-Thomas

Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go. Surprise yourself so you can surprise the audience. Transcendence!-Thomas

All above of course they do not come from my brain, you should know my brain isn't that hmmmmmm. credit to the wonderful webs =)

Conclude with the most famous and widely known quote.

Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get.-Forrest Gump

恕我不坦白 :(

2011-02-26T02:04:00.002+08:00

不是我不说出来

只是我怕我担心

别人知道后将来旧事重提

那种心揪着揪着的感觉不好受

不想用时光机来重游回忆

会觉得当初好傻好天真是怎么搞的？

是真的

你可以说我自私

但不成功的没希望的说了又能怎样？

说出来都觉得丢脸不光荣

我还是不大习惯在大众面前展露我稍微不强的一面

如果你知道

除非我带出的话题不然可以不重提吗？能免则免

说出来

2011-02-25T00:43:00.003+08:00

麦兜说：

有事情是要说出来的，不要等着对方去领悟，因为对方不是你，不知道你想要什么，等到最后只能是伤心和失望，尤其是感情

有什么不可告人的？

有什么不能说出口？

有什么要收收埋埋？

人要适时的表达自己。人家不是你肚子里的虫，怎么可能了解你的想法？除非那个人挑通眼眉，观察细致，或你的额头有显字咯。不然到了海枯石烂，别人还是猜你不透。到最后，自个儿自责，失望，难过。何必呢？

通常误会的造成就是因为你没有表达想法，没有表明立场。

有什么，说出来嘛，多个人知道，多个人用脑，多个好主意。何乐而不为？

这是要告诉我自己的。

真的很佩服那些直话直说，直肠直肚的人，你们有何来的勇气呀？

说话的技巧还有很多学问。要适当。要适时。要适人。 =3

Essere morto, e risuscitare dai morti

2011-02-24T02:46:00.007+08:00

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night

I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile

I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you what I should have said

No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you

I can't believe it, I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you, without you

I see your blue eyes every time I close mine

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to, when I'm not around you

It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you what I should have said

No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you

(Still, you're gone)

I can't believe it, I still want you

(And I'm lovin' you, I never should've walked away)

After all the things we've been through

(I know it's never gonna come again)

I miss everything about you, without you

YOU amazed me!

Don't feel stupid of whatever you have did, but be happy because you finally did it!

Like i always say, never try never know.

Somebody told me that, Give a huge hit to the wall, if it does not tumble down, make a u-turn then.

Does not matter if the outcome is good or bad, at least you tried before it is too late, you will not regret!

p/s: If I never step back, If I keep moving on, you, me, on?

then i saw this phrase,

Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

nahhhh never!

I am looking for YOU!

2011-02-24T01:54:00.003+08:00

Decision. Decision. Decision.

I hate making decision. I am afraid that I will regret someday.

You might think that how hard would that be to just decide a thing? Yes or No? just like Black and White? However, I always put myself in the Grey, between yes and no. Me stupid, I confused myself all the time.

Maybe just plainly because I think too much. At the end of the day, I lost my direction. I do not know what I want at the first place. Totally messed up my own mind.

Why do I think so much? come on laaaaaa, you are not prime minister, not that your decision will pull down the country.

Why do I care so much of others? harlo, it is for yourself, what to do with others?

MAKE UP YOUR MIND!! WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FOR?

*knock knock the brain*

Not only one, but quite a few of them, asked me before. why do you think so far away? think too much laaa you. that does not bring any better to you sometime, instead it may screw you yourself. well, i pretty agree with that, past experiences told me that, when i finally made up my mind, i watched the chance just slipped away from my hand. i was so regretted i never grip it tightly.

okok. decision made. hope it will be good =)

It is not said but I always know

2010-07-11T04:58:00.004+08:00

Little House - Amanda Seyfried

I love this place
But it's haunted without you
My tired heart is beating so slow
Our hearts sing this
That we want it we want it
Our hearts sing 'cause
We do not know we do not know

(Chorus:
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said I always know)

You can catch me
Don't you run
Don't you run
If you live another day
In this happy little house
The fire's here to stay

(Chorus:
To light the night
To help us grow
To help us grow
It is not said I always know)

Please don't make a fuss
It won't go away
The wonder of it all
The wonder that I make
I am here to stay
I am here to stay
To stay

This song gives me chill.

I haven't watch this movie yet, or it has not release yet?

I don't know. But I just watched the trailer, I wanna watch it so badly, or either read the book will do.

I think it's gonna be very touching!! It's gonna make me tear :'(

It's 5.16 am now, and i am so awake!!! haihhhhhhhhhh

Congrats to Germany who won the 3rd place!!!

群

2010-07-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

有一个问题
我一直理解不了

为什么人群中会分帮派？
明明就是人嘛总是一大群里分成一小撮一小撮

人有群分物以类聚

合则聚不合则散

志趣相投志同道合

拥有共同话题兴趣想法就变成那一小撮

难免旁人很难融入

毕竟哪种默契思想文化需要时间来磨练

年级相若何有思想之别？

皆因思想层次有差异

朋友都说长越大越没有哪个动力去认识新朋友就连旧朋友也懒得应酬

我猜

人越大要考虑的事情越多根本就没有哪个闲情去调节那个思想差异

久而久之

人变得孤僻找个可以聊得来的伴也没几个倾向与世隔绝

我说

社交圈不需大但要广

同手足不需多但要真

聊得来大可深交

聊不来片面之交

不需为找不到话题而尴尬

为那宁静氛围而感到舒服

找自己

2010-05-23T14:18:00.003+08:00

陶喆-找自己

昨天晚上做了个梦　我走进撒哈拉沙漠　空无一人站在太阳下
摄氏六十六点六度　快要焚化我的眼珠　突然一场大雨降下来
汗水被那雨水冲走　结束四十天的折磨　荒漠一转变成了绿洲
彩虹下有一棵大树　大树上有一颗苹果　咬下一口我就全明白
可不可以让我再　让我再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　找自己

哗啦啦啦啦啦　天在下雨
哗啦啦啦啦啦　云在哭泣
哗啦啦啦啦啦　滴入我的心　oh yeah~
不用说我只会胡思乱想　不用跟我说我只会妄想
哗啦啦啦啦啦　让我去淋雨
我只希望能够再　能够再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　找自己

挤在公车像个沙丁鱼　上班下班每天是规律　这么多的人到哪里去
每个面孔写着无奈　爸爸妈妈彼此没有爱　难道这就是生命的真理
可不可以让我再　让我再一次　回到那个美丽时光里　去逃避

躲在我的屋檐下面　OH~
睡在我的被单里面　OH~
听着细雨滴滴答答　滴滴答答　滴滴答答

不知成几何时，发觉我迷失了自我，迷失了自己。
一直跟着别人的尾巴，被别人牵着鼻子走。
要找回自己找回自我
不是为别人而活
要为自己的精彩而生活
加油！！

当爱与不爱

2010-05-18T20:46:00.001+08:00

黃威爾-愛與不愛

天天一起看海脱离现实的存在
我们牵手拥抱填满了空白很愉快

和你一起计划将来做你最好的依赖
但未来没有来打算打不开
沉默暗示你不想等待

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
我们都无话可说
有过多少快乐就有多少痛
都在揪着

当爱与不爱一样让人心痛
不要松开我的手
故事走到最后也许还没最后
不要带走你的天空

爱情已被现实摔坏痕迹都留不下来
我们像是小孩现在才明白
眼泪诉说你想要离开

不想說明　只想反應

2010-04-12T23:14:00.001+08:00

陳奕迅：无人之境

讓理智在叫著冷靜冷靜　還恃住年少氣盛
讓我對著衝動背著宿命　渾忘自己的姓
沉睡的凶猛在蘇醒　完全為你現形
這個世界最壞罪名　叫太易動情　但我喜歡這罪名

驚天動地　只可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風　不敢有聲　這愛情無人證
飛天遁地　貪一刻的樂極忘形
好想說謊　不眨眼睛　這愛情無人性

若世界陷進大騙局裡面　朋友亦難以發現
共你隔著空在秘密通電　挑戰道德底線
如若早三五年相見　何來內心交戰
我信與你繼續亂纏　難再有發展　但我想跟你亂纏

驚天動地　只可惜天地亦無情
不敢有風　不敢有聲　這愛情無人證
飛天遁地　貪一刻的樂極忘形
好想說謊　不眨眼睛　似進入無人境

即使間整個約會情調幽暗似地下城
還是算溫馨　多麼想跟你散步橋上把臂看著風景
但是我清醒　月亮總不肯照亮情慾深處那道背影
你我像快快樂樂同遊在異境　浪漫到一起惹絕症

不想說明　只想反應

Girls' talk

2010-04-11T01:19:00.004+08:00

It's been long. really really long.

This 20 minutes. Not too long. Not too short.
But it's enough. We chatted, we laughed, we shared, we had fun.

That's what I have been missing all the while, since I came back.

*would be better with comfy couch + refreshing liquor. :p*

I am SO looking forward for the perhentian trip! please make it work~~

执着

2010-04-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

太刺激了！！！不到一个月又有一桩喜事！！！真期待下个月轮到谁。。。呵呵
不过。。昨晚有个朋友告诉我他们分手了。。。。世事难料。。。

做人无须太过于执着。

珊分析，

以她本身为例，
她父母亲很执着于成绩学业，但她成绩总是平平无奇，过得去更毕业了。

我们的朋友，
她父母很开通，怕她女儿很宅，总要她多看世界，但她成绩就属厉害。

我们的朋友，
她家教甚严，保守派，在家乖乖女，在外世界女。

我再加以研究，

我的朋友，
他父母不允许在学交往，他偏偏从小瞒住家人，偷尝爱情果。

我的朋友,
他家境中上，要什么给什么，但给他一笔钱，他会一毛也不花，全数奉还。

做人真的无须太过于执着。
太过于执着，通常都会产生反效果，事与愿违。

也许我不可太过于执着于我的原则，我真的很怕我得到的会是相反与我想要的。
那大锅了！！
天灵灵地灵灵

Read the past.

2010-03-28T02:11:00.003+08:00

It's been quite some time since i came back from Australia. Just tonight I finally have to mood to clear off the mess in my room. As usual, piles and piles of rubbish to throw away.

In the afternoon, my mum just asked me, what was inside those shoe boxes that are hiding at a small corner of my room. A layer of dust covered the surface. Blow away the dust, opened it up, OH a box full of envelopes!

Yup those are my letters/cards collection. I have collected them since I moved to KL in 2003.

A cute birthday card made by Khai Xhuen, written by all of my collegemates in 2006.

The drawing that Shan drew to me in 2008. Illustrating the distance between she and me when i was doing my intern in hometown. Sabah is a state of Malaysia k! =)

From one of my close friends during my form 1 and form 2, look at the date, it was written in 2002!

HAHAHAHAHA I was the luckiest one for that christmas in 2007, but the one who got my gift was the unluckiest one. You should know who you are huh? HAHAHAHAHA

Small pouch made by Mui Yen in 2004, for my birthday! It got dirty due to my poor handling. :S

Looking back at all those letters, cards, notes and small gifts, they lead me all the way back to respective years. They sort of recorded the bits and pieces of my life. And i found out that is one thing i never change since last time, I LOVE complaining! HOHO. I have so many unsatisfaction in life meh???

I used to write this kinda snail mail before the high popularity of ICQ or MSN. The internet connection was so suck back then. Jaring dial up. Does anyone here still using Jaring now? My constant pen pal was my primary school mate, Suk Ling. We are no longer using snail mail to keep in touch, but we have another way of keeping in touch. We shared alot, we bitched alot. She was and she is still the source for knowing more updates from hometown. We used to send letter very often to each other, constantly sent small lovely gifts, eventhough the gifts were so small, nothing at people's eyes, but they meant alot to me! some of them I still keep them til now! I remember, everytime after school, the first thing after stepping out from school bus, was to peek into the pigeon hole and checked if i'd got a mail! Whenever the envelope had my name on it, it did really brighten up my day! The excitement was undescribable!

The excitement is decreasing day by day. I don't peek into the pigeon hole that often anymore. The peeking excitement switches to opening email inbox. However, both excitements are incomparable. I still love reading people's handwriting. I find handwriting can express the full real feelings and emotions of the writer more, compare to dull emotionless typewriting.

I hope the amount of letters and cards I got is still counting!

hope. unchanged.

2010-03-17T23:41:00.003+08:00

Know what.

Sometimes, I feel that I should
1. Never go to Melbourne, OR
2. Never come back to Malaysia

p/s: Are you (still) with me?~~*

Simply because I care.

2010-03-13T20:25:00.003+08:00

on the 12th march,

Kwong wrote:

自己很在乎的
發現
原來沒有人在乎

朋友
我又有多少？

Direct translation:
I do care alot
But I just realise
There is actually nobody even want to bother about it.

Friends,
How many do I have?

Somehow, I have the same thought over the past few days. I was putting myself into a deep thinking moment just to find out the exact explanation and number. I told myself before, when you are actually treating people well, never ever expect for return. I treat you good, simply because I care for you, I feel happy for doing so. I can swear to god, I have no unfavourable intention behind.

When you find that there is no friends going the same way with you, maybe you should slow down your pace, your friends are walking too slow. Or perhaps, you are walking too slow, you should speed up a little bit to catch up with your friends. It's all about tolerance. Do not just think about you yourself, sometimes, you should also put yourself in somebody's shoes, and think with his/her mind. Then you will realise that, the way that somebody's think is not the same like how you think about that somebody. That somebody might have his/her personal reason for thinking in that way. Do not walk in front of your friend, Do not walk behind your friend, instead you must walk parallely with your friend!

Friends are actually all around you. They might not be appearing when you are in deep shit, but you should know they are always there for you! At least, I will always be available for you! 24 hours on call! =)

=x

2010-03-10T21:28:00.002+08:00

True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.

When we don't talk, or rather seldom talk, hope that you know what's in my mind. The mutual understanding and faith we have on each other is enough for us to communicate without opening the mouth.

To my friends.

2010-02-26T02:17:00.000+08:00

When I cry, you help me out.
When I talk, you hear me out.
When I grin, you know that I am mad.
When I'm happy, you hear me shout.
When I'm sad, you can tell.

As we grow older. The amount of friends we have might increase as time goes by, but which of those are actually willing to sit down and talk to you? listen to your grumbles? solve your doubts? cheer you up when you have a really bad day?

I was once like to celebrate my birthday with bunch of friends, as much people as possible, the more the merrier. Celebrate new year eve or christmas eve at some crowded place, squeezed with sweary wet bodies, spraying form to strangers or cars. Outing with a lot of people, keep calling and messaging people to come for gathering.

The me now, finds that, actually, whenever you go out with a lot of people, eventually, those people will separate into small groups and chat among their groups. So what's the point of gathering all the people at the first place? Some people might be entertained, some might be just get ignored. Why not make it small, so every participants can involve, and make every outing a meaningful one!

Come back to the number of friends part, real true friends that willing to share and listen, you do not need so many of them, 1 is enough, if you are lucky, you might have few of them.

Real true friendship is hard to find. When you have one, appreciate it!! =)
Yes I appreciate YOU!

2009-12-29T10:54:00.002+08:00

哭砂-黄莺莺

你是我最苦涩的等待
让我欢喜又害怕未来
你最爱说你是一颗尘埃
偶而会恶作剧的飘进我眼里
宁愿我哭泣不让我爱你
你就真的像尘埃消失在风里
难得来看我却又离开我
让那手中泻落的砂像泪水流
你是我最痛苦的抉择
为何你从不放弃飘泊
海对你是那么难分难舍
你总是带回满口袋的砂给我
难得来看我却又离开我
让那手中泻落的砂像泪水流

风吹来的砂落在悲伤的眼里
谁都看出我在等你
风吹来的砂堆积在心理
是谁也擦不去的痕迹
风吹来的砂穿过所有的记忆
谁都知道我在想你
风吹来的砂冥冥在哭泣
难道早就预言了分离

classic classic. add on to my k-song list!!!!

uncertain...........

2009-10-24T21:28:00.003+08:00

有种莫名的感觉
是奇妙的？
是伤感的？
是失落的？
是兴奋的？
是亢奋的？

不确定

可以肯定的是
那是负面的

是压力？是家事？是功课？是人事？

到底为了什么？

我不知道

很想找个角落
或一个陌生的地方
逃离这一切
痛痛快快地哭一场
再回来做回平常的我

可是我哭不出来。。。。。

其实我很不想在别人面前将自己最软弱的一面呈现出来
我不需要别人可怜不需要别人担心
只是偶尔想释放一下就好
借我肩膀靠就好

当眼泪静悄悄从我脸颊滑过
请不要问我为什么
好吗？

It doesn't matter!

2009-09-16T00:37:00.001+08:00

Already gone - Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even without fists held high, yeah
Never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now
I can't stop

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, Oooo, oh
Already gone
Already gone
Already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone
I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone...

p/s: something that is gone, just leave it, and let go. Don't suffer over it, but get through over it. It is not worth to even cry over it.
You are not alone, and i am always be with you~

Not yet a shopaholic!

2009-09-07T15:38:00.006+08:00

Please control meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

Been spending for too much in the past few weeks.

Went to adidas factory outlet last monday. AiFang and BaoLi got the voucher of 40% off for every adidas products. Sia predicted that none of us will buy anything there except AiFang. Surprisingly, everyone of us bought things. I bought a laptop bag. Original price was $120, and it is having 40% off right now!!!! Took me a longgggggggggggggg while to consider. They all persuaded me to buy it. and gosh i really got it! Easily to get influenced.

The next day, happily bringing my new bag to maccas, i think there was where i lost my mp3. Did not zip my bag properly. Although i am still not sure where did i lose it. But i was pretty sure i cant find it anymore after coming back from maccas.
MOURN FOR MR BEAN pleaseeeeeeeeeee. and My good-base-sound hook earphone. Sad case.

Okay. then i got myself an ipod shuffle. a red one. Reason why getting the red instead of any other colour? Red is special, can only buy it from apple retail shop. Wanted to get creative. When i asked the salesperson of dick smith, she said creative is totally out of business. HUH? i thought creative is selling quite good in malaysia. The disadvantage of ipod is it does not have radio function.

Been eating out for quite often this sem. The groceries i bought, start rotting at home. And i still keep on buying new things every week.

The moment you pay with cash or card, the moment the cashier passes you the shopping bag, the moment you open it and take a look of your stuff to make sure it is safely and securely kept inside the bag, the moment you hold it in hand and bring it back home. Those moments are very satisfying and super excited!

Behind the scene,

The moment you get online and check your account balance, the moment you withdraw money from atm, the moment you cut off the tags, the moment you take a serious look at the thing you just bought, and the moment you start to think carefully "why are you so special til i need to get you with such a price?" "how long are you going to serve me?". Those moments are so complicated and indescribable.

OH SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. Control me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Remind me to S.A.V.E!!!

p/s: the food here in australia actually taste nicer than malaysia, except malaysia local food.
Jap! Korea! Greek! Chinese! Italian! oishi! ichiban! hochak! haochi! yummy! sedap! haoxit! housek!

Regret.

2009-08-23T22:48:00.003+08:00

If you were to ask me what will you change if you could turn back time?

At this moment, i would answer you, i want to change my decision.

Seriously. I may have made a wrong choice. It haunts me. I just do not really know why, that decision would turn out to be a mistake. A mistake which lead to loss of something. That something I cherish, I care, and I appreciate. Before that, the consequences flashed to my mind before, but I thought I can get through it. At the end, still I cant escape from it. Maybe that is its fate.

I tried to help to make things better. However it does not turn out to be well. Things do not change. I fed up after few trials. I am so sick with the current. Is it just me? Does anyone feel the same way?

Just let it be. I do not give a damn anymore. I notice my change after this.

I've lost my patience. I become so alert to people who is trying to take advantage of me. More and more evil bubbles popping up surrounding my head. I am becoming a cold-blooded person. More complaints. More curses. I feel like evil horns and tails start growing out from my head and ass.

Other than upset, what more can i do?

p/s: i feel like i am a kid right now, i want my mother and i want to go home.

Rare species.

2009-07-24T11:09:00.004+08:00

I had donated another 0.5L of blood to the Australian! WOOOOHOOOOOOOOO
4 months ago, took 6 minutes to collect 0.5L of blood.
4 months after, took 13 minutes to collect 0.5L of blood. arrghhh dunno why so slow. hurt so much. left a very ugly wound.

Yup I am B positive! yay! 8% in the population. Who is with me?

feel hungry easily after donating the blood.

Sorry, I take, can't give, in this matter.

2009-07-02T07:26:00.006+08:00

My blog has reached 300 posts since 2007!
could have be more if i blog consistently everday.

People was asking me, why aren't you sharing any of your own stuffs?
Arrr? I share my everything all the time.
Food, clothings, books, stationary.... etc just almost everything, just let me know you need it, you get it.

People asked me again, not those, share some other stuffs.
Arr? like? I am famous being a CNN in the circle of my friends. I just share whatever I know to my close friends. Any kepo stuffs, any hot juicy rumours...... just sit down and have a drink, you will know whatever you want to know. (secrets, mehhhhhhhhhhhh zip zip zip =x I can't afford to let people loses trust on me.)

People bugged me again and again, nahhhh not all those, you never share your personal stuffs.
my god? that really takes me a long time to think what should I tell about myself. Seriously speaking, I don't feel myself has anything special to talk about, compare to others, all i can say, my life til now, it is just a flat stable non-fluctuating straight line, no pretty obvious ups and downs. Nothing interesting to discuss or share about. That's why, always when it comes to my part, i rather just keep quiet.

They asked again, what about the updates for those you told me before?
updates? no updates at the moment dears. For things I don't feel like owning it now, I won't give myself a chance to extend to any further chapters. Out of sight, Out of mind, I keep myself a distance away.

I share all my stuffs to you, but you never share~
please don't blame me. I don't mean to. Just that i find myself has nothing interesting to share. and your stories are way better than mine. I love listening to each and every stories, happenings, events, problems or jokes of yours.

I might be a good listener, but definitely not a good teller.

肉麻。骨痹

2009-06-30T08:52:00.003+08:00

农夫-肉麻无罪(粤)

第一次咁需要第一次想
第一次谂起你我会偷笑
第一次咁钟意
第一次咁想呢一次系最后一次

唔驶怕

唔驶怕唔系大话

边个话我系一个Rapper
就唔可以咁肉麻
系我同你嘅Story
太呕嘅话我Sorry
唱啲咁嘅歌都净系想你知
I want you be my lady
我想第时
同你试试用一条锁匙
同一个座厕
我都想可以嗌嗌你妈咪做妈咪
唔再嗌呀Auntie
Oh honey唔好介意
我冇Money只有真挚嘅心意
你嘅心事我通通都想知
我钟意你又点会介意
你似欣宜定柏芝
我要令到你廿四小时
日日都嗌Ki mo chi
我要令到情人节都冇晒意义
唔驶刻意送礼物
因为嗰一日就系我哋嘅每一日
你望住我像河看海
我望住你如何按奈
酒不醉人人自醉
唔通肉麻都有罪
我哋都有过去都有爱过嘅爱侣
唔会抹走你嘅过去
但我会抹走你所有眼泪
再流都系开心嘅眼泪
陪你过以后每一岁一世一对
原来你系我一直搵一直等
一世一齐瞓嗰一个伴侣

如果只可以见你一天
我希望系以后嘅每一天

如果只可以见你两天
我希望系白天同晚天

如果只淮我见你三天
可以系昨天今天明天

只准我见你四天
春天夏天秋天冬天

俾我见你你七日
我希望系星期一到星期日

系咪好娘好核突
我就系胜在够老实
你问最期待边日
我话你听系我嗌你老婆嗰一日
怕你听得太多
太过伤心情歌
咪怪我肉麻过火
我只系想写首歌
记录你同我

哇哇哇~~~甜到流~~~~

Hakuna matata.

2009-06-30T08:22:00.003+08:00

WOW. been long never update my blog anymore. WOW the last post was about the easter break trip. my god, 3 months ago. and i shall be able to post about my upcoming trips and happenings in 2 weeks time.

Alright. finally. all those hard, tough, stressful time is over!!! well they were just hibernating until end of july. They gonna climb back to me soon. Anyhow, holiday is the best thing ever. must jaga budget also. the exchange of RM to AUD is getting higher and higher.

missing the time where we were back in kl. after last paper, first thing came into mind must be CHEONG K!. just felt like screaming everything out from your body. then yumcha yumcha yumcha. shop shop shop. Can't really do it here, instead we watched Transformers 2 that afternoon right after our last paper. That AUD14.50 you paid for that movie was damn worth it. The seat is BIG! for my size, i already felt it was big, what about for those who are way smaller size than me, it was HUGE for them. and the screen, way wider than the one we watched in gsc or tgv. and you will never know the cinema here can actually fit so many people at one time one show. 2 times bigger!

back to the movie. oh well well well, still transformers 1 is the best. Wanna know why. go find it out at the cinema. =)

Easter trip!

2009-04-21T22:31:00.010+08:00

Back from the easter break trip!
Actually been back since thursday, thing was just came back, the next day straight away mood-big-turnover back to working mood. 3 assignments due + 1 test held on monday!!!
Luckily my groupmates are smart enough, still able to finish all up within 3 days! Hehe thanks for the efforts made.

Alright back to updates.

Never thought of driving in Australia. First thought of just join Monash sport center's day trips to grampians and great ocean road, which cost $95 each. Somehow, ended up organising a self-drive trip to both of those places. 3 days 2 nights trip, including meals, accomodation, transport and fuel, cost us nearly $200.

13 of us. 3 four-wheel cars. 10 drivers. drove about thousand kilometres. the very first time big gang of chemical engineering students (plus 2 mechanical students) hang out together for trip after 2 years studying together in sunway, i suppose.

The one who started the journey for our car,

Ms Hui Hui! don under estimate her. she can handle a big car steadily though she is small in size.

The other occupants of the car would be, those ji zha possssssssssssss

The FOOs, bao and sia

Sia and PekSee.

and of course me!

We are the second car in the line, the last car consists of

SeanL, cathie, weiyun and chyi.

The oddest one, dunno why they got a toyota Rav4 instead of Nissan Xtrail that we both got, unfair!!!! hehe.

jiahan, keeloong, cheeyang and kennethO.

Along the highway. Western highway i think. Toll-free highway.

If you look carefully, u can see white dots, those are sheeps.

jam on the highway at the opposite side.

After 3/4 hours car drive, we reached our

very First Stop, THE GRAMPIANS NATIONAL PARK!

Rushed to Reed Lookout, a balcony to watch fantastic sunset!

clear blue sky with few cloud beds.

That is the legendary balcony.

catch the sun! courtesy: Huihui

We had night walk on the first night.. Unfortunately, the animals seemed not ready to meet us yet. We hardly saw any animals. We learnt how to see star scopes from the guide. The blinking stars in grampians, super duper Charming!!!! you can see southern cross and saggitarius clearly at night.

Second day!

famous Mckenzie's Fall

finally got a spot to take nice picture. u cant imagine how dangerous it was to take this.

Then Beehive Fall.

The fall dried. sad.

Climbed to the top to crave our name on the wall.

We actually climbed halfway of that moutain to crave our names there.

That was our car for this journey. Nissan Xtrail. nice car.

Then, Hollow Moutain.

Rock climbing. hehehe.

Is it a kangaroo or wallaby? I still cant differentiate it.
While driving around grampians, kangaroos, wallabies, rabbits could possibly hop hop hop in front of your car. You even have to break to let them cross the road. So SAFARIIIIIIII.

The place where we stayed for 2 nights. The cabin.

the Beds.

Us at Mckenzie's Fall. Claps for them who able to climb up the big rock!

Third Day,

Second stop, The GREAT OCEAN ROAD!

twelve Apostles. as people say, if you never been here before, you cant consider as been to australia before.

hmmm... einstein they say, with abit more of greyish white on the hair. From my hair pattern, guess you can predict how strong the wind was on that day.

Few of the Apostles. left only 7 to 8 Apostles only arrrrrrrrr. Must go before you cant see them anymore!

Us at Bay of Islands. One of the highlight along great ocean road.

FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!! love the natures alot!!!!! how i wish the beach just beside my house. how i wish the stars just on top of my bed. how i wish the kangaroo will be my pet. I want them allllll.

had fine italian dinner at lygon street in the city. when i got back to the car, I saw something stick on the windscreen.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN kena fined!

Actually was very suiiiiiiiii on the third night, more details will be posted up next!
I learnt alot of new things for the first time driving in Australia. need to pay garrr.....

(More nicer pics on Facebook ya. and other participants' album. check them all out ya)

Give a break laaaaaaaaa

2009-04-14T06:34:00.002+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhh finally easter break is here! gonna be free for the whole week!!!!

I am off for self-drive trip starting today!
3 days 2 nights to Grampians National Park and Great Ocean Road.
Victoria Exploration here we go!
=)

Stay tune for nice nice pics the next update.

ohhh Happy Easter to everyone out there.
i bought easter bunny and eggs. hope it lasts til the day going back to kl.

p/s: oh ya here to inform that, daylight saving time finished on the 5th of April. Supposed to be 3 hours apart with Malaysia, but now it is only 2 hours apart. Great! I finally see more people appear online in my msn list at the same time, should find some time to talk to you all.
I just feel my time is not enough, or i slack too much. hmmm...

taaaaaaaaaaaaa. offf we go.

Allow him to be Frank.

2009-04-08T18:37:00.003+08:00

Straight forward.

Definition:
1. Proceeding in a straight course; direct.
2. Not circuitous or evasive; honest and frank.
3. (of a person) honest, frank, and open.

Ask yourself, how many people that is straight forward in manner have you met in your life? Straight to the point, in Chinese we say, one shot see blood. Well, I should be familiar with this kind of manner, because I have Fern the ass, Shan the Lipsy, Shuqin the Fox, Sean the Jingak and some other silent killers.

Landlord and his wife brought along the wife's grandpa's brother and wife aka suk gong and suk po to No. 7 (our house).

Suk gong: Apa khabar?
Sean: Khabar baik.
Landlord: They are from malaysia, they can speak chinese.
Suk gong: (in mandarin) know how to speak mandarin?
Me: Yes.
Suk gong: Oh, ni hen fei.
Me: (in doubt......) huh?
Suk gong: (getting louder) ni hen fei!

Andrea ran back to her room. Sean crazily laughing.

Me: Oh, thank you! (plus a sad-smile)

Lena：He was just trying to say that you are cute.

...........................................zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz.........................................

You jealous because You don't have the body like mine.
You jealous because You don't have the big arms and thighs like mine.
You jealous because You don't have the butt as big as mine.
You jealous because You don't have the waist that i have.
You jealous because You don't have what I have.
ciu....
hohoho XD

From now on, think I should keep a Shield with me to protect myself all the time.

Friends are Forever.

2009-04-02T11:54:00.003+08:00

Am I too sensitive?
Am I thinking too much?
Am I focusing on something that is so small or rather never exist?
Did I make the correct decision at the beginning?
Is this what I get after all the hardwork i had done?
Have I done anything wrong?
Why are you doing this to me?
What happen between us?

I am willing to lend my ears to anyone.

Is there anyone willing to listen to me?

I am prepared to solve people's problem.

Is there anyone could solve my problems?

nah.... i can get through it. Don't bother. Don't care. Stay out of sight. Flush away! Flush away!

2009-03-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

I think I was tough.
Actually i am not.

Just the other day, made a phone call back home, still teasing my piggy as usual. But when the phone passed to my grandma, she asked,

"do you miss me?"

Tears started to fill my eyes.

I miss home.

Hmmm.

2009-03-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

Out of Sight. Out of Mind.

It is just an excuse for you to hide yourself from accepting the truth/happening. You don't even have a concrete solution to overcome the problem, instead you choose to make yourself isolated from the problem. At the end, the problem still exists at its original phase. And yes you really hoping that things will get faded away as time goes by. If people will forget things that easy, Sejarah will not be taught in school.

Well,

Say that sentence to yourself once a while, for temporary treatment. To prevent yourself from falling deep into it. To let yourself have a peace of mind. To get yourself out from the critical situation for a short while. To have sometime alone to make clear of yourself. To let free of your bursting brain. To focus on matters that put on priority list. To have a drink. To take a stroll out there. To settle. To evaluate.

It works sometimes, but not for long term effect.

at least, at the moment.

2009-03-10T21:39:00.001+08:00

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You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

uuuuuuuuuuuuh kinda true weyyyyy. more update soon =)

KoalaRooland

2009-02-19T19:51:00.003+08:00

Bascially, i am living fine here. Staying at a newly built townhouse. People keep saying that the rental is too expensive. $135 per week for sharing room. I share with Pek See. But i think i am paying for what it worth. At least, i have not feel homesick yet. Or maybe I have no time to encounter that feeling yet. I am trying to explore this suburb - Clayton as often as possible. Also some of the neighbouring suburbs. Not going be at home for most of the time. Another reason for not staying at home, is the connection is VERY bad. Need to restart the router EVERY 15 mins. Driving me crazy. Landlord is going to install the new router soon. Sorry for seeing my name popping up and down from your msn.

The place i am renting is 7, Hilltop Avenue, Clayton 3168, VIC, Australia.

Is anyone willing to mail me plain papers, veggie, facial foam, tee shirt, heels and shorts, please?

Too expensive to get them here. Especially tomatoes. My god. Selling at 3.99 per kg at coles. zzzzZ

Will update more when my connection gets fixed up!

Plan to go to the city again and to st kilda beach this weekend! WOOOOOHOOOO summer is never be good without sun and beach.

That morning before I fly.

2009-02-12T06:20:00.003+08:00

Remember my birthday wishes? View
1. New laptop half sponsored by Mr Sen.
I got one. Fully charged into Mr Sen's account. =)
2. Get myself satisfactory final result.
I made it. At least I passed the semester. phewwwww.
3. Fly to aussie.
YES!! I am leaving on a jet plane~~~~~~~

Thank god, all my wishes came true this year.

I am off to Melbourne in less than 18 hours from now. Taking the 'everyone can fly' 8 hours flight, touching down at 1120 am their time, their time zone is 3 hours ahead Malaysia.

Dearly all, I will be back in 10months time. Miss you miss me. See you til then. Wish me luck!

aiya haven't update what i suppose to post to.

HEIYO

2009-02-03T00:06:00.003+08:00

嘿唷祝你今年发大财咧
今年发大财
财神爷咧财神爷咧
大家见面笑颜开
躬躬敬敬烧个香咧
五路财神跟着来

年头发到年尾
年尾发到年头
好吃好困好过年

My favourite CNY song of all. This is the song that pauline mentioned in her blog that made all of us laughed non stop the other day.
HEY YO~~~~~~

33333 ho li huat dua zai lei~~~

Let's scream out loud
HEY YO~~~~~

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHs

lone ranger.

2009-02-02T23:25:00.003+08:00

The use of webcam.

To get in touch visually. Also, to take funny pictures together no matter how far apart.

one lovely pair of asses. wtf.

She is going to be lonely, studying alone here, while we all in australia. We all gonna miss you lots. Miss us too, especially my sensual voice. HOHOHO.

少八为妙

2009-01-30T00:46:00.005+08:00

好运365
雨扬老师说

零九
出生于龙年者
偏冲太岁
易有口舌之非缠身
需有贵人相助

把口收点好

幸运一头牛喔！

2009-01-28T00:49:00.004+08:00

冼女
在此祝贺
各位

叔伯兄弟乡亲父老姨妈姑姐堂表侄外

恭喜发财！
心想事成！
步步高升！
横财就手！
数钱不手软，照镜靓爆镜，成绩第一等，常遇贵人助，桃花朵朵开，
感情甜如蜜，早日拉天窗，得上司相识，日过亿进帐，无忧无虑过世。

零九年
物价跌澳币降！
行情好经济升！
牛市! 牛市！发啊~~

moo moo moooo

New attached song.

2009-01-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

The Wedding Game 大喜事

before watching the show, already fall deep in love with its OST. I have not watch it yet. Anybody interested on watching that with me?

我們的愛 - 陳孟奇／姚惠敏
曲︰陳孟奇
詞︰吳慶康

女︰手交給你一生交給你
在你眼裡看見我自己
直到白頭誰都不會離棄
永恆看得見幸福在心底

男︰牽你手心相伴一世紀
我會永遠承諾保護你
直到我們連皺紋都老去
也會讓你開心不哭泣

男︰我們的愛沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

男︰我們的愛心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰手交給你一生交給你
在你眼裡看見我自己
直到白頭誰都不會離棄
也會讓你開心不哭泣

＊合︰我們的愛沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

＃合︰我們的愛心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰讓我看仔細
男︰永遠不要忘記
合︰所有好心情壞脾氣
苦與樂都珍惜

重唱＊,＃

合︰AVE MARI

Always love the rhythm of Ave Maria.

De-tour

2009-01-22T07:33:00.004+08:00

From the day I got back from sabah, I had never rest down. My schedule is FULL for the whole week.

Tuesday, Mui Yen aka my best pal during form 1 and 2, came from UPM serdang to have some girls' talk. basically talking about our and people's histories. Really, half day was not enought for us to finish the topics. Save them til the next time we meet.

Wednesday, supposed to go down to low yat to get a new modem-router. night before i accidentally fixed the modem, can get connected by using cable. still cant use the wireless. thought might be problems on cables, bought some cables. hmmmm now, i certified my router to be dead. zzzzzzzzzzzZZzz still need to buy the modem-router device for RM185 for d-link or RM245 for linksys.

my olympus is dead for loooooooooooong. mourn for it.

so i am thinking to get myself, take note here its MYSELF, money draws from my account to get a brand new camera. i asked advices from few camera shops, they suggested this model.

Canon Ixus 80IS.

actually they are doing promotion on this model. RM799 with 2GB memory card.
the cheapest i can get is RM750 with 4GB memory card.

It suits my need. Cheap, practical and useful.

cheap????????? hmmmzZzzz

That's the colour i want. in Brown.

my laptop is nyawa-nyawa ikan, half dead, mourn for it too.

well that is too much for me to afford. need to persuade my dad to buy me one of this.

It is either

Compaq Presario CQ40-134AX Notebook PC

with AMD dual 2.1GHz processor, graphic card with dedicated ram, 320GB, free upgrade to 2GB RAM, add RM60 to upgrade to 3GB (max 8GB), Genuine Window Vista Home Premium.

RM2299

OR

Dell Inspiron 1420

Intel Core 2 duo 2.0 GHz, 180GB, free upgrade to 250GB, 1GB RAM, free upgrade to 3GB RAM, add RM40 for wireless card, add RM40 for bluetooth, Genuine Window Visa Home basic.

RM2340
Have i lose confidence on compaq? Should I put hope on Dell?

all have not reach my hand yet.

De-tour. Decision making.

2009-01-17T21:12:00.004+08:00

19th of January. The day which I have been looooooooong waiting.

F...........I..........N.........A...........L...........L................Y..............

for whoever received my complaints before sure knows i have so much thing to talk/curse about.
Oh god, where do i start?

Well, will write the details when i am back to my home sweet home.

By the way, i just spent Rm75 on cutting and dying my hair. First ever costly big operation done on my hair. I am pretty satisfied. Here to say, I afford no critics as I felt I spent so much on that. =P

oh shitttttttttttttt, I just remembered thunder murdered my modem and router at home.
ARRRRRRRRRggggghhhhhhhhhh
*#@&!*()&$*@^#%!&^!@*((*^*&(@#hell%#^%^#&^%@@&*

I need therapieeeeeeeeeeesssss. Cheong k! Shopping! Food! Gadgets! Movies! Money! mehhhhhhz
facial? manicure? nahhhhhhhh not practical.

Counting down 2 days.

Byebye 2008. Hello 2009.

2009-01-04T00:32:00.008+08:00

Week after christmas, it's new year!

new year eve. If i were in kl, bukit bintang or some where must where i be. but I was at the ulu place for real. zZzz No firework, no mercun, no counting down from 10 to 1, just very peacefully passing from 31st to 1st.

830pm, Shan's sms festive greetings. I replied, was alone, while the rest happily bbq out there, where my window can take straight peak to the place. I said i felt the coldness and loneliness of the world. The rest refers to the old folks or rather uncles, those management people of the mill.

930pm, knock knock. "mr chua invited you to come over". okay. changed my pyjamas went out.

Mr Chua aka the manager, knows enjoy life very well. He breeds a bunch of lambs at the corner of mill. During special occassions, ordered somebody kill one, and up to the table. Roasted lamb they had. Even the charcoal came from the kilang papan nearby which also own by this company. The whole meal is FOC weyyyy. One thing was, i did not know that the char siew can actually buy them raw and cook ownself. Self-roasted char siew, chewy but yummier without the red coating.

Cutting the roasted lamb legs. Even the bbq equipments, home made ones.

You know. eating with those uncles at late night. one thing you cannot escape it from is...

alchohol. Made it double.

i think those uncles totally changed my image in their mind when they see me drinking beer.

p/s: mr chua was drunk, and he never admitted it, kept wanting me to listen to what he said about his hometown, klang. Let me go when it reached 130am. but of course everybody was around, like 3 uncles, 1 young man, 1 young woman and me.

It's new year of 2009!!!

company trip to picnic at waterfall. 5 cars, 24 people went. 7 chinese, the others, pendatang and orang kampung. my brain starts to think in malay way instead of chinese or english way. i need to think twice before i open my mouth, or else it will be malay which comes out first.

Let me introduce the fun, interesting, great exploration and cheap recreation of orang kampung is to mandi at air terjun. there are plent of them along the way, but somebody suggested this

Air terjunBakong bakong. It supposes to be a name of a kampung. thought it will be free admission, who knew RM2 per pax, company paid.

that is the brief map of bakong bakong waterfall. scroll down and follow the stories to know clear about each section clearly.

Starting from the right of the map.

2nd cliff. the top part that is open to public. Doing the action below is at your risk. If you are same or greater size than me, my advice is do not take the risk.

Free falling from the top to the lake at the bottom. that person in red doesnt jump to the air, but fall from top. I catch the moment before he touched the water.

Second hero. At my knowledge, the lake at the bottom is not that deep, but still people loves to play extreme game.

Third hero, slightly off the track, but he worths 1 clap. the bottom lake, was full of people, some of them i saw, washing their head with shampoo, berbuih-buih. What the heck. i do not dare to get down to the water.

Secondly, the place we picnic. We had fried meehoon and fresh coconut prepared.

Drink the coconut milk. Eat the meat with coconut spoon. try before?

few kuli, carried wood all the way up there, and start bbq. marinated chicken wings and cheese sausages. bbq at the wild, feels different. Really. Do not have to care about hygene matter anymore. Most of the time we bakar more than panggang, the oil dripping made the fire burnt. Eat charcoal more than the meat.

one of them said "kata jangan makan hotdog, nanti tidak kuat."

zzzzzZz kuat apa?

Thirdly, the rocky waterway. The thoughest of all. Combination of big, medium and small rocks. The landscape is not flat, slippery some more tops up the thoughness. I nearly fell down like big potota. luckily im steady enough to stand still. but i wet my pants for few times.

While i was walking down the stairs of 1st cliff. i met this guy at the halfway. sitting at the middle of the waterfall. relaxing, playing his guitar and singing his song.

The view of the 1st cliff. higher than the 2nd one. so nobody dare to jump down from there.

can you see the guitarist? top middle. like floating in the air.

way back to mill. boss belanja roti canai. honest to say, this can defeat sri neela's one. but this curry sauce not spicy but taste sweet.

hmmmm. unusual new year celebration i can say. to buang sial by mandi-ing at the waterfall. Aiya i forgot to take the new year bath at 12 am sharp.

Well. May world peace, May economy recovers as soon as possible, May 19th Jan comes in a blink of eyes. hehe. it gonna be another great year too all of us. keep the good luck running.

Say goodbye to 2008.
Wave hello to 2009.
Happy New Year dearssssssss.

muaxxxxX

accidentally took this while i was chasing the lambs near the ponds at mill.

Christmas 2008.

2009-01-03T22:25:00.005+08:00

Merry merry christmas, Lonely lonely christmas.
The message i sent to my fellow friends.
Can you feel what i felt?

After the christmas of 2007, when the 3 dummies and a pair of couple spent RM100 for each set of so-so christmas dinner at Pavilion, I often said that is the most expensive night for me, and it CANNOT be happened again. You know i only worked RM4 per hour at the pet shop, one day per week, that dinner already costed me 3 days/weeks pay.

What about the christmas of 2008?
Actually I already have a brief plan at the end of november, desa gang planned abit on how will it be going on christmas day. WELL, without me, the rest were still going on with the plan. GLAD to hear that. *jealous*

I loved them by calling me at the middle of 24th eve night, pass 12, saying, "we are going to exchange xmas gifts now". yada yada yada....... zzzZ. Still thanks! at least i know i was not left alone. My mum called, yada yada yada... saying cooked what for christmas, salad, various steaks, wine, mashed potato........ chiew..... what i worried was the calories. hehe=)

24th and 25th, I stayed alone at the 3 rooms semi-detached house. Housemates (aka engineer and his family and the assistant manager) never even let me know they left. The feeling of scared more than lonely. 80% of the workers either balik kampung or outstation. Left the chinese guarding the mill and office. No festival feel at all! Quiet tuuuuuuu.

Good thing is the tv with astro that i never touched since i moved into the house had finally became all mine. When i happily key in my fav channel,

317.

"you have to subscribe this to watch the channel"

311.

"you have to subscribe this to watch the channel"

what the heck.

The astro of the house, No HBO, star movie, wah lei toi, tvbs, mtv, channel V, disney channel, basically all my fav channels, NOT AVAILABLE!!! sighs.

Even the tukang masak, went visit-visit malaysia. No cooked food available on christmas day. Smartie me bought cup noodles weekend before. My christmas eve dinner.

Cintan - Asam laksa. Damn pedas duiiiii.

An Old chinese auntie pitied me kind enough to, said cooked Yam sweet soup, shared with me.

the under-cooked yam. still very rigid. My christmas dessert.

What about the christmas dinner? our boss driver came all the way from town to cook for us and the managers. Normal chinese style dinner like what we had on normal days. To say it all, Usual, nothing special.

So now, if you ask me again, can you accept if the time reverses back to the same dinner in 2007? Yes i do! i do!!!!!

Perhaps, Money buys joy. =)

Early season greetings

2008-12-21T16:57:00.003+08:00

You may not know that. In sabah, just say sandakan, we have churches and temples more than mosques. It is enough to prove that, people here mostly are Christians or Buddhists. During the week of christmas, we have choir singing christmas carols from house to house. Just to bring the christmas joy to the people. Today, we had a young man giving a pack of raw noodles at the door, saying its s gift from god. Well, he is the church person, giving out brochures about their church christmas function, the pack of noodle just the top-up of it. But you sure will feel the happiness right, getting a pack of noodle for free.

The christmas decoration and the people gathered in front of the majlis perbandaran sandakan to watch the christmas performance joined by few different branches of church. Everyone is given a candle to hold throughtout the performance.

Got the free santa hat. Christmas greetings from my cousins and friends. Took while walking along the beach at harbour square. Newly renovated.

Of course, don't forget the owner of this blog, ME!

wishes everyone, a very Merry Christmas and has prosperous year ahead.
Happy new year and welcome the 2009!!!
hohohohohohoho

stunning pose. hehe. =)

oh and also happy winter festival! eat tang yuan!
mai tang yuan. mai tang yuan. zhe li de tang yuan shi yuan you tian.~~

Feed the animals.

2008-12-21T15:39:00.002+08:00

you know, those samba place, has samba dogs. Here we say samba dogs are those KL people say tu gou, soil dog. direct translation. haha. The bitch, as in female dog, gave birth to the puppies, then let the nature nurtures her babies. tian sheng tian yang.

We, cant manage to provide them shelther from rain and hot sun, but we are kind enough to give them food. triple per day. they will eat the same like what we eat, leftover. For sure 1 plate of pork, 1 plate of chicken, 1 plate of fish, 1 plate of veggie, and soup. Every meal. Chinese cooking style. Although 3/4 of the mill workers are indonesians and kampung people. most of them are christians. I am the only chinese girl at the mill *emphasizing*

back to the story. when the tukang masak bringing out the baldi full of human being's trash, the doggies will happily hopping here and there waiting for her to pour that baldi of food to the mangkuk. half broken grease container. The special phenomenon is, the sequence. The sequence of the dogs for enjoying that bowl of Treasures of them. I find it very funny. If any of them made it wrong, they will have a great dog fight. Rolling on the floor.

Firstly. the evil black dog. None of them even the other adult dogs, dare to go near him while he is eating. He eats all the nicest one.

then the male adult dog's turn. i suspect he is the father of all the puppies. because he is only male yellow adult male dog among those dogs. hehe. obviously. zzzZ

the puppies come after their father. there are 4 puppies, but one of them are white while the others are yellow. the yellows always boycotts the white. no politics k. they have a small body but big tummy. thanks to the nutrition gave by us.

Some of them. Such as the bitches, take a quick peak at the bowl, pick the nicest, biggest one, quickily hide under some shade, then happily enjoy chewing that piece of meat.

After the dogs. Then the roosters. Im not sure what left inside the bowl. but i see the rooster keep cucuking the bowl. eating their relatives. when they grow up, we eat them, their youngster eat our leftover, them. this circulation is ewwwwwwwww.

last consumer, the sparrow. eating the sisa left by the dogs and roosters.

no wonder all of them are so well built and healthy. Especially, the chickens, i always see the chicken meal on the table, the meat are few inches thick. Juicy juicy. Forget about what they eat la k.

miss x 10000000000000000

2008-12-21T01:07:00.003+08:00

I miss the internet. my god. within 2 weeks. anything could happen. Some people already posted few posts on their blogs while somebody just posted a.single.satu.yat.yi.yit.one post. Copied style.

I miss so many december movies. I miss so many episodes of the nanny. i miss christmas in kl. i miss present exchange. i miss the chance to prank people. i miss ah boy. i miss home. Tears rolling.

Counting down 3 weeks.

Booked air ticket back to kl on 19 jan.
Booker air ticket go to melbourne on 13 feb.

still got time to shop right? hopefully yes. i have so many things NOT YET buy. my winter wear arrrr....

i just got the christmas card from chia hui. wrote in singapore but sent in kl. zzZzz cheaper wor she said. kedekutnya.... but still, it really warms, when you have to celebrate with DONT KNOW WHO WILL IT BE. coldness, i feel.

crossed 20th, 20+ days to go. Move on!

life at the mill.

2008-12-13T21:08:00.002+08:00

Dadadada.....
Finally i get down from the factory and having a day off at downtown. Had a very boring days at mill factory, finally my aunt bring me here, Jesselton cafe, to get connected. Of course, you have to pay at least a cup of drink to enjoy the speedy wifi here. You cant believe, this is not a starbucks, but prices are similar. Live in my hometown, not cheap anymore.

Just a brief on my work place. the palm oil mill. oil extracting factory.

Blogspot messed up the arrangement of the pictures posted. haizzZz start from the back then.

I work at the lab. My work is to control and maintain the palm oil quality by doing experiment the samples occasionally. Also have to calculate the oil losses in the end product or by product at the end of process by doing experiment on the samples too.

That is the signs found from the lab. But seems nobody following the rules. those kampung boys handle the chemicals bare handed. my god. they could have burnt their figures someday. because we are dealing with iso-octane, hexane, sulphuric acid, isopropyl alchohol, this and that, highly corrosive chemicals, still they do every experiment with unproper utensils and their measurements have never be accurate or precised. BUT of course i have to tell something good in the report that i have to submit by the end of the training la.
I insisted to at least wear hand gloves while doing the experiment, don't care how people at me, but i just want to take care of my health and handle the chemicals carefully and safely.

The first few days, i had been assigned to only observe people on how to do the testings, while no testings undergoing, then i had been given few files to analysia the production plant by myself. Because, most of the workers they are foreigeners, they did not get proper education on the process and all, so the explanation is not that clear, i have to read, analyse and take note by myself. But some of them like the chief could explain more to me if he is free. Sometimesssss

That is the lab. Stinky, full of palm oil smell.

another angle of the lab

this is where i live. single room with a single bed and facilitated with air con, without remote control. VERY VERY COLD at night. Broken ceiling fan under the bed.

my work time is from 7am to 6pm. Back to room, continue watching the series i have in hand.

I listen and speak malay the most in my life. so little of them understand english or either chinese. feel the difficulty in communicating. but i will try to overcome it. Since malay is the main bahasa in malaysia. time to learn back my malay skill. hehe.

til then. next update would be hmmmmm not sure when will i be going downtown again.
ta~

4 more weeks to go.

Here is the starting point.

2008-12-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

What a terrible week i had.

Monday. Went to the clinic for medical checkup for applying Australia student visa. Tested I have very high blood pressure. Need to be referred to the cardiologist for further checking.

Tuesday. Start controlling diet and do more exercise. It helps abit on reducing the blood pressure.

Wednesday. Awal-awal pagi reach Taman Desa medical centre met up with the cardiologist, the documents brought was not completed, rushed back to the clinic near klcc, and then ran back to Pantai hospital to meet the same cardiologist, but was assigned to come again on thursday afternoon.

Thursday. Went to Pantai hospital in the afternoon. Wore the 24-hours blood pressure monitor watch on wrist. To rent that thing cost me RM390!!! Damnnn.

Friday. Surrender that watch. Result showed I have high blood presssure during the day and even when sleeping. Serious case. Now on medication. Need to reduce weight and blood pressure in 2 months time. Back home check email, found out my student visa had need approved. I wonder why, because the clinic supposed to wait for my cardiologist report before sending off my application to australia high comm.

Saturday. Went back to Pantai hospital again to do the blood test and urine test. Then submitted cardiologist report back to the clinic. I heard the nurses squeaking there that my incomplete application forms had been sent to australia high comm. They made mistake. Wow now i know why. Well im happy because my visa is apporved.

Right after the blood test, after 14 hours of fasting, straight away indulged myself with this Starbucks X'mas special drink. To maintain low calories, i shared with sis and mum.

Toffee Frap.

actually there are lots more to update about life. singapore trip, jogoya buffet 50% for ladies, abandoned puppy again, my boy new fur cut, and more and more. guess all those have to wait until i come back in 1 month+ only post them up bah. unless internet connection is available. =)

Here is my address as some of you requested for.

No.7, Block I,
Taman Wemin,
Mile 5,
Jalan Labuk,
90000 Sandakan,
Sabah.

IF im not mistaken with my grandma's home address. haha.

My mum keeps want me to bring this and that. "you never live in san ba you never know how the environment would be, bring yada yada yada......" Just 72 miles away from downtown, it should be fine. I now have to carry an overweight (>15kg) trolley bag, a laptop backpack, and handbag. all of them full with things. My god. I can predict the bags i will be bringing to australia next year.

Propose to be back a week before chinese new year. Need to review by the cardiologist. Tata all. muaxxxxXxxx

Geography lesson.

2008-11-29T00:48:00.003+08:00

Let me ask you a geographical question. How many states are there in Malaysia? Can you name them all?

I show you visually. 11 states in West Malaysia. 2 states in East Malaysia, Sabah and Sarawak. Total up 13 of them all.

See the diagram below, There are the 13 states within the boundary of rectangular dash line. The one with heart shape, there is my beloved home state, Sabah. And my hometown is located at the east coast, Sandakan.

My story is.....
I was at the 7-11 to fax my industrial training letter back to hometown. I asked the store keeper if their fax service can fax my stuff to Sabah.

Store keeper: tak boleh. luar malaysia tak boleh.

luar malaysia??? what you say??? you know sabah???? I can't believe that there are people still does not know that other than the ubi Peninsula, there are actually a dog head Sabah and a its body Sarawak. We named Peninsula + Sabah + Sarawak as Malaysia.

Go back to your Primary school, People!

p/s: I will be going back to my hometown to do the industrial training. Proposed to leave next week, coming back end of Jan.
p/p/s: the factory is located 72 miles away from downtown. might be shortage of internet access. How am i gonna survive there? hmmmmmm start downloading more dramas, more movies and more games i guess.

Long lost sis.

2008-11-27T01:45:00.002+08:00

This evening, a kc junior aka my sis classmate, nudged me at msn. She claimed that she saw a picture of me posted up on the Pictures of Happiness contest by Sony. It was taken in Malacca. She still said that she was impressed by the humour we had.

I was like errrrr.... Malacca? Who post that up?

I insisted her to show me that pic. She directed me to that specific page.

Search....
searching.....

walao eh..... LMAO! ROFL! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH XD

My junior claimed that girl in green was me.

Justify yourself.

What do you think then?

Getting myself an intern.

2008-11-25T15:41:00.007+08:00

I am so so so so fade up of finding a company, willing to provide me industrial training!!!!

I had been sending out so many letter of application since SEPTEMBER and nobody replies. What the hell is wrong with the HR department? Could you at least reply me with 'sorry your application has failed'? Let me die heart faster rather just plain waiting and planting mushrooms.

Since plan A is gg, then I shall move on to plan B. CALL. I try to get as much contact as possible from the internet. Tried calling one by one the whole morning.

"hello, I am a second year student of chemical engineering, I would like to ask about the industrial training with your company."

RESULT =

"oh we don't have"

"we don't provide training"

"the positions are full at the moment"

"wait until you reach 3rd year then you call back"

"we only accept application at mid year"

"the person who in charge is not in yet"

"this is the office not the factory"

Some of them are nicer and helpful a bit,

"December and January are full, why not you try to write in earlier next year"

"let me have your email, I will get in touch with you"

One of them very cruel and mean,

"sorry no!" hang up!

walao ehhhhhh i am not asking money from you k. How hard is that to give me a training for uni sake?

My mum comes out with this brilliant idea,

"go back to sandakan, your uncle will get you the biggest palm oil refining factory in Malaysia to work at. You know, you don't have to work there but your evaluation report going to be very nice."

Yea rite as if i really want to stuck there celebrating Christmas and New Year... ALONE!
Well well well well, at the end still have to solve it, might or might not seeing me during christmas and new year, let's see how then. I can't make up my mind yet.

A Moment With Your Kakiis

2008-11-24T00:55:00.002+08:00

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My regular kakiis, I would say they must be the girls i knew since I was in the secondary school.
We sing a lot.
We talk a lot.
We joke a lot.
We laugh a lot.
We tease a lot.
We play a lot..
We shop a lot.
We dine a lot.
We share a lot.
...................

Overall,
We have a lot together.

Never ending story~~

Strange encounter.

2008-11-18T23:46:00.004+08:00

Went to explore bangsar boutiques this afternoon, with the ass aka Ms Yeong Sook Fern.

basically, she is the one who want to buy new clothes preparing for chinese new year which is in 2 months time. I lead her the way to bangsar only. And teman her for lunch at madam kwan's. It was the first time she been there. "Nasi bojari not bad oh!" You thought only kota bharu has nice malay food meh. Of course pricey la.... consider as Branded ma.....

Never know bangsar has so many boutiques hiding upstair at the first and second floor. Can they merge all the blocks, for letting us save energy to climb up every stairs. Alternatively, please build electronic stairs. Tak boleh tahan.

That ass happily choosing, trying and buying clothes. While i was happily glancing, flipping and trying. No choice la. Save abit lo. Will gonna have to spend A LOT on the australia trip.

Then almost reached the end of the exploration, we dropped by 'sew & soul'. I think amber chia owns it, to be further clarified. When we were about to leave, that store keeper, a middle-aged auntie approached, i thought she gonna open the electronic door for us, but.....

Auntie: Who do you think is fatter? (staring at the ass, requesting for an answer)
pause a while, me and the ass stunned there.
Me: of course it is me! round, big, huge.
the ass still figuring where to press the button to open up the door.
Auntie: Yea meh? I think I am fatter wor. (answer back very seriuosly)
Me: no la. It is me! I can't fit it the dresses here.
the ass had not find the button yet. It was up there.
Auntie: no la. I am bigger bah.
Me: hohoho ya hor.....
the ass still searching. how i wish i was could step forward to press it.
Auntie: I am bigger. (who cares? I know I am big, don like to compare)
Finally the door is opened,
Me: bye bye (quickly ran down the stairs)
Auntie: Please come again. You will find your happiness soon. (你会很幸福的）

okay.....
errrrr......
hmmm.....

So you have good guy to introduce? OR you have someone to recommend for?

actually I did not listen carefully to what she said after i waved and said bye bye. It was repeated by the ass.

well you could hardly encounter with such situation huh.
I take that as a good wish. Thank you very much!

(will gonna post on singapore trip. takes time to edit the pics, or can view at facebook, 2 albums there)

I've got it!

2008-11-16T14:08:00.002+08:00

Good day mate! do you see that?

Holy dooley! WOOOOOOOOOOOOWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I am going to visit the kangoroos and koalas next year!!!!

I know there are plenty of people got the offer or maybe almost everyone who applied got it, CONGRATS!!! Ace!! We are going to meet not at Sunway but in Clayton next year!!!

Get ready by learning some common Australians' slang and phrases. Check this out. http://www.koalanet.com.au/australian-slang.html

Free like a bird.

2008-11-09T21:41:00.003+08:00

I finished my sem 2 finals. And i am now having the 3 months+ summer break.
today is the fifth free day. i am starting to feel the sienzzzness.
Cant do too much shopping 'cause the figure in my account book is dropping bit by bit. The weather drives me crazy. It could either be too hot or big sudden rain in the evening. The malls are pack with people, school holiday arrives, parents likes to bring their kids to kl to shop. The uneven colour tone of my laptop screen makes me lose the mood of watching either movies, dramas or play games. The world is not safe, so many crimes out there, it does really freak me out.

People asked me, how are you going to spend your loooooooong break.
I said, REEEEEEEEEELAX. I guess 2 days enough. Days after that, spider web and mushroom start growing all over my body.

Before finals, i made a plan. I planned to let November to be my free month to do whatever i want, of course within my parent's restrictions. That's zzzZzzz. Staring December until end of January, i would be doing my internship. If i am lucky enough, I might be flying to kangaroo home in mid February.

So far. none of the above is confirmed. I applied placement of industrial training in few companies, no reply! aiks. my dad's friend helped to submit my application to his company. hope his company could get me a place. Or else, plan needs to change. hmmm. I might need to get a high salary part time job to work for, earn around 3k, get myself a brand new laptop next year!!! no more compaq. no more hp. for the people i recommended compaq to, no harm using compaq, just that i lost my confidence to compaq that's all. Probably i may end up buying compaq as my second laptop. who knows.

and I really Really pray hard that i could get the offer to fly to clayton. hope god hears that. winks.

I will be going to singore next week!!!! Well well well. the exchange rate now is so damn high. 1 sing dollar to 2.5 Ringgit. I have hundred plus sing dollar in my purse now, hope it is sufficient for my few days stay in singapore. A budget trip for me i would say.

How am i going to spend the end of november. hmmm i think i will finish up knitting the scarf i left over last year. HAhahaha. shameful. and also keep praying i will pass all my papers!!!

中医师把脉，测我有
胃有风 - 减少喝雪柜水
肝火盛 - 不宜太迟睡
气不足 - 多做运动
会常头晕头痛

I have an unhealthy lifestyle..................

I am.

2008-10-27T23:06:00.003+08:00

I am an ostrich.

I dig a hole and hide my head inside.

I might can talk it out loud. but I might not make it.

My bad.

My big day

2008-10-24T23:22:00.007+08:00

DIY cooking.

2008-10-24T19:45:00.006+08:00

100 yen shop has just opened a new outlet in Taman Desa. Everything inside is selling at 100 yen which is 4.9o in ringgit. Well, I saw this. The readily-made raw flour for making pancakes!!!! That box in red.

As you can see, the instruction are written in japanese. What the hell i know about japanese. Luckily there are few pics there to illustrate the method.

The ingredients would be the pancake flour, milk and an egg.

Mix everything into a bowl. Stir it.

Stir well. I would say, if you want the pancake to taste softer put more milk.

Melt sufficient butter into the pan. It is recommended to melt the butter in low heat. I heard it from some of the cooking programme.

Pour a portion of the mixture into the pan.

That is the initial.

3-5 mins later, the final product. The colour is ugly. Teach me how to make the colour even.

Add abit of honey and a cube of butter. And enjoy!

Compare my pancakes to the photo shown at the flour box. A big difference right. I think a fixed mould can give a better shape to the pancake.

So why go to paddington? 20+ ringgit for a plate of dollar pancakes???

Save your money. Do it at your home.

actually pancakes taste nicer at paddington.

I made this ABC soup in the morning. boiled for few hours. I ate it for lunch. then i boiled the extra for dinner. I forgot to watch it. and... it ended up HANGUS. bad bad smell it was.

I nearly burned down the kitchen for a few times already. aiks.

To share.

2008-10-20T01:27:00.001+08:00

a lovely song.
Attached to the blog.

Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Sleep-over Companion needed.

2008-10-18T15:52:00.004+08:00

I think I will be left home alone for several days. Ehhh not alone, I have the accompany of ah boy.

Now, there is a vacancy. Temporary maid for me. From Tuesday to Saturday.
do the laundry, clean the house, wash the dishes, cook my meals.
Accommodation, meals, entertainment available.
Salary is negotiable.

Oh, i need to employ a Temporary chauffeur as well.
Just to send my dad and sisters to and fro the airport and fetch me to and fro uni.
Conditions same as above.
Salary is negotiable.

Candidates please mail your resume to yjsen@hotmail.com

I guess it just doubles up the hard time.

I think I can get through it!

Wake me up when October ends.

2008-10-17T22:33:00.005+08:00

What a memorable october i have this year 2008.

My beloved grandpa, mum's daddy, had just passed away this evening, at his age of almost 90. I can't help with my tears when I saw my mum cried. Actually, I had been asking myself once that would I cry if any of my grandparents leave? My answer was NO. Actually the bonding between grandparents and me is not that strong. From the day i born, the only chance to meet my grandparents are only during the few days of chinese new year. My family stayed in other town. You know, small kids will never like to chit chatting with the old folks. At most, got the ang pau, then greet 'gong hei fat choi', told what grade i had in school, then continue tv-ing. I was a cool kid, I did not talk much with my relatives, even the cousins also never ask me to join their games. When i grew older, my family moved back to hometown when i was primary 3 to primary 6. Still, i never appreciated the time having with them. The memories that kept in my mind, was that my grandpa liked to tell his personal experience. He experienced the World War 2, how he migrated from hongkong to borneo, how he learned words without schooling, or rather just went for 3 days of primary school, how he learned malay to have granted of the permanent residential identity during the formation of malaysia, how he suffered during the war, how he got lost with the brothers and sisters then reunited together after some time. It was interesting to listen tp his stories. But 4 years staying in hometown was too short. He grew old very quickly. It was like he could walk normally the previous year, but just in one year time, he needed a stick to support upon walking. He liked to see my sisters and i doing our homework. He came and comment on our handwriting. I remember, he told me my handwriting was too light, meaning, i am not a practical person, i was not determined enough, i might get bad influenced very easily. He told me to beware of that. I keep his words until now. I left my hometown after staying 4 years there, since then, he started to ask my grandma about the status of my dad, my mum, and we 3 sisters. He will ask like where is ah keong? where is ah khyun? every day. Sometimes he just got fooled by my uncle or my grandma by answering his question with some silly things. Luckily, my family went back to visit him during this chinese new year. But he cant recognise me anymore, he called me with my aunt's name, the aunt where we both really look alike. Today, before dinner, he went to toilet, he fell down, ambulance came, doctor certified, ambulance did not even want to send him to the hospital. His death is already certified. 630pm. All of a sudden. I thought i will never cry. But when things come all in a sudden, you cant even afford a tear that wanna fall. Luckily, he went off without any chronic disease. Luckily he went of peacefully without worries. Just unluckily, 3 of his sons and daughter were not by his side at the time. None of his grandsons and granddaughters were there too. I am so sorry. I cant even have the chance to meet him for the one last time. I cant even do something for him for the last time.

Life is short. Time is too little.

I hope my grandma can stay stronger than before. Same to my mum too.

Gonggong, may you rest in peace with the care and blessing from god. You live in our hearts always.

wake me up when october ends.

e-MooN

2008-10-16T22:01:00.001+08:00

To my ass,

We all know those cute little computer symbols called 'emoticons,' where:

:) means a smile and

:( is a frown.

Sometimes these are represented by

:-)

:-(

Well, how about some 'ASSICONS?'

Here goes:

(_!_) a regular ass

(__!__) a fat ass

(!) a tight ass

(_*_) a sore ass

{_!_} a swishy ass

(_o_) an ass that's been around

(_x_) kiss my ass

(_X_) leave my ass alone

(_zzz_) a tired ass

(_E=mc2_) a smart ass

(_$_) Money coming out the ass

(_?_) Dumb Ass

From my ass.

thanks weiyun for the forward msg. =)

Superwoman-to-be

2008-10-14T22:44:00.005+08:00

funny. the full original video is not allow to be embedded from youtube.

Alicia Keys - Superwoman.
Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
Slave to humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oooohh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

Go Go Sisters!

Official membership to the Twenties.

2008-10-12T23:53:00.004+08:00

Oh it's october again!!! HOHOHOHO it is the happiest month among the 12 months of the year.

children day falls in october.
both my sisters' birthday fall in october.
my dog's birthday falls in october.
my birthday is in October too!!!

I am turning into the second decade of my life!!

just had the family celebration today. my dad was busy, my sis was busy, those what made the postpone. had the expensive but not filling dinner outside, then back home with candles blowing session.

Happy birthdaysss to the Sen's sisters.
12 turning 13.
17 turning 18.
19 turning 20.
wheeeeeee XD

as you can see, my parents saved alot on birthday cakes all these years. 1 cake gao dim 3 birthdays. my dad is a banker and my mum was a banker. They did the math before giving births to us. HAHAHAHA.

wishing, get a new laptop whereby half fare will be sponsored by my dad, get self-satisfied final result, fly to aussie nex year!

last but not least, may world peace and good fortune dropby my family. =)

oh i wanna get rid of the flu and cough NOW!

praying very hard.....

suei daoooooooooooo

2008-10-05T22:56:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION to dear all.

Do not leave your laptop switches on for a long period. especially under a hot environment, air circulation is bad. IT BURNS YOUR LAPTOP MOTHERBOARD!

wooooooohoooooooo i kena!

every graphics i see now has a colour shadow at the back. like watching some horror movies.

i am SO SCARED!

guess. this time. the predictor is correct again. my money flows in and flows out this year.
i have to use my own money to fix it or probably to buy a new one.
touch wood saying PLEASE neither this nor that!

due to some mistakes. all the information in my internal harddisk all gone. due to wrong adjustment of harddisk partition during formatting, need to reformat again.

being my laptop needs to have strong heart and body!

suei daooooooooooooooooooooooo

sick.

2008-10-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

I am sick. dry throat, cough and feeling dizzy the whole day.
what is wrong with me?

counting down to final.
21 days more.....

No fate.

2008-10-02T22:22:00.002+08:00

N73, a second hp gift i received from my uncle.

3 years ago, The first one was a samsung phone. Just a week after i got it, i accidentally dropped onto the floor, the LCD screen broke. Sent to service, I SPENT BLARDY 200+ for that BLARDY screen! and another 50+ for the BLARDY antenna! The BLADRY camera rosak after dropping down a few times. Need to fix again. Well that time i gave up, i bought a brand new phone. I would not want to spend over 500+ for an old phone!!

this year, my uncle gave me a N73 which he just bought it a year ago. Actually N73 was once in my consideration before i bought the k750i. It is a symbian phone which runs a system similar to PDA. Now i just got it with a click. BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT the battery has problem in retaining the power, it gets low very fast. Sent to check. the fellow said the phone is a AP stock, the battery is not original, and the battery is swollen, the software inside need to be updated. A battery costs BLARDY 230+, new software does not support chinese characters. WHAT THE TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT.

I don have fate with things without pay.

No wonder at the beginning of this year, the book had predicted me saying that, my money would be coming in then going out this year.

I worry the swollen battery might burst someday. So i have no choice but to change back to my old phone. Until i have enough cash for the DAMN battery.

meanwhile, shan was being dragged to work for megakids during the raya festival. megakids paid $10 per hour on raya days u know!!!!! alright, as a faithful friend to her, know she gonna be very siiiiiiiiienz doing the boring job. So we had lunch together, and let her talked as much as she can!

Ah shan with the dotted tee, looks like Dalmatian. =P

Selamat Hari Raya!

2008-10-01T02:35:00.001+08:00

renovation in progress!

Hairy Furry dear.

2008-10-01T01:59:00.003+08:00

My little boy has a habit.

Same as me, he can sleep anywhere comfy he can find. He will pick the best place to sleep.

when the light is on, when my door is locked,

he pulls out abit of my bedsheet cover, and sleeps on top of it.

When the light is on, when my sis's room door is opened,

Still the same, sleeps on top of the bedsheet cover.

Alternatively, when i shoo him out of my bedsheet cover,

He sleeps on my carpet.

when the light is off, when i go to bed, when nobody bother him,

automatically, he will go back to his own tray, sleeps with his blanket and toys.

Facts of Australian Silky Terrier

Personality: Intelligent, assertive and loyal, the Australian Silky Terrier is a happy, playful breed. Originally bred to kill rodents, they thrive on constant activity and are always on the lookout for scurrying prey. This breed is known to maintain a puppy-like attitude throughout life.

Suitable for: Full of energy, this versatile breed will adapt to any situation, making it suitable as a companion in a one-bedroom apartment or as a family dog. It usually devotes itself to one particular family member (usually the one who feeds it). The Australian Silky Terrier is great with children and will play with them for hours. Their small size makes them ideal household pets.

Favourite activities: Thriving on activity and entertainment, the Australian Silky Terrier enjoys a good ball game, chasing a Frisbee or going for a long walk to keep happy and healthy.

Watchdog qualities: Often thinking they are bigger than they actually are, the Australian Silky Terrier is a brave and assertive little dog with strong guarding instincts.

Now, That's my boy! =)

Happy 5th Birthday!!!
sei gou zai..
soon 14 oct.

Hardwork to share.

2008-09-27T01:15:00.003+08:00

Sorry to Yeeen. 4am, received her message, only knew that she was about to leave this country!!! OMG. Still thinking sempat to call her in the morning. Thought her flight might be at night. WHo knew she left before i could call her. SORRY weyyyyyyy.

Still my best regards will still be with her no matter what the distance is.

Well. This is the little movie made for her.

The original one was supposed to be 31 mins. Somehow Windows Movie Maker needed to take 300thousands mins to convert into movie file type. zzzZ. So I cut off abit of the home videos, and now it is around 20 mins video.

Youtube only allows to upload 10mins video. I terpaksa divided the video into 3 parts and also reduce the quality in order to reduce the movie size.

Conclusion:
The movies shown below are not at their best quality.

HAizzZzzZ

well, Enjoy.

Special Dedication 1/3

Special Dedication 2/3

Special Dedication 3/3

So long farewell. =)

Fall behind.

2008-09-24T21:16:00.003+08:00

alright. I Don't like end of sem except the long long holidays ahead.

Dunno why all assignments, reports, calculation MUST come before finals!

These few weeks, i cant sleep well, but i ate well. You can see my lunch, a hill of lauk pauk. I have to take nap after dinner, like around 11. set alarm to ring at around 2, do a little bit of anything, fall back to sleep at around 5. I am mentally exhausted everyday i reach home. Taking bus is very tiring k. My mum just does not know how suffering it is to be.

Anway, the alarm just seems cant wake me up recently. I slept all the way from 11 to 7 in the morning!!!!! without doing anything. I only can rushed back to uni, copy ppl's work. I found myself very guilty. not productive enough. AARGHHHHHHHHHhhhhhh

I just submitted my student exchange application today. Please approve my application. If i am lucky enough, i might be staying there for 2 years. Let's see how. Please grant me good fortune.

I am being so evil ass this week. I did evil things, i have evil thoughts. Evil in an angel body that is.

I have math assignment and 2161 lab report to submit this week.

I enjoy my single life at the moment.
the sentence i kept repeating not only once this week.
don have to bug me with, no ppl u have in mind meh? no potential?
know the real reason behind?
because no ppl date me at all! satisfy? =.=

but I really do enjoying =)
see me wink.

Earth's due date.

2008-09-15T21:12:00.006+08:00

This morning, Mum told me that, yesterday, 14 of september 2008 to be exact, was the worst day of the whole year. 3 accidentals around the world, involved the sea, land and sky, victims all died.

o.O

okay............

I told sf and bl about this. sf said, end of the world is drawing closer, HE is going to take away all the sinful people's lives. Don't you think so?

o.O

okay............

I have to confess to god. I have sin.

I was in the bus. There was an auntie waving her hand trying to attract the bus driver's attention to open the door and let her went in. Oh well, i did see her! but i did nothing but just staring at her and my mind went emptily blank. That auntie thought i was gonna help her to stop the driver. But i did not!!!! OOOOOppsie sorry. I had something bugging my mind at that moment.

Oh PLEASE, let me stay longer on earth........... I still have my wish and dream to be fulfiled.

@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@
present to you

End of the world
by S. Dee/A. Kent

Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don't they know it's the end of the world
'Cause you don't love me anymore

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everythings the same as it was
I can't understand, no I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

2008-09-09T00:25:00.002+08:00

I want the sky to rain money
instead of just plain H2O.

Do i sound too desperate now?

To be a better man.

2008-09-07T23:21:00.004+08:00

hmmmm....

All of a sudden, my dad is suspecting my ability of completing my degree. I guess, probably because the number of his account is getting shorter and shorter. With such economy situation, haizzzzzzzzZZzzz. Save money ar, ah luiiii.

Frankly, I carry that fear every moment. I made up a lot to reach this stage. I believe, just add abit more hardwork, I could finish the route. I have faith in myself.

I will prove to you that your investment on me will never be worse than the bulk money been thrown to the sea by uncle!

I might not be the best, but I am trying with all the best efforts I have to be a better one.

Nota bagi saya.

2008-09-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

Mari mari. semua beratur masing-masing.

1. 2161 lab report
2. 2162 lab report
3. Hysys hand calculation
4. Math assigment
5. 2162 test

Semua ada misi tersendiri. Perlu disiapkan dalam minggu hadapan!

Mampus la sayaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

:'(

Be responsible!

2008-09-07T03:54:00.002+08:00

Normally when you read the newspaper, it was so often to be reported about pet abusive case or pet been leaving alone without care on the street. Well, some heartless, cruel, bitch-like, 12345 customers just abondoned their poodle at my pet shop to let.

Reason for left abandoned: His legs too long!

wtf. God created him to the world, you met him, you bought him few month ago, and you simply abandoned him just because his outlook???? He is not cacat wey, he has done nothing wrong to you! and you threw him away after all your 3 minutes excitement to him??? You know how bad the owners are, they brought a 7 months old schnauzer to pet shop, intended to let as well.

The GREAT reason was The dog is too noisy!!!!

OMG!!!! mf. Which dog in the world does not bark at all! unless its voice cord is being cut off. Another non-dog-ity act.

To all poodle lover out there, please take him home with you as soon as possible. That puppy poode is just 4 months old. Selling at Rm600. Negotiable. He is in black, which is very rare in market. He is quiet and very active. He is so sticky and follows you whenever you go. See i cuddled him so he followed me along to the grooming room. That was where i put him into the trash bin and snap snap.

Isnt he cute????

I love poodle. I love their intellingence. Plus, with this rare colour, I find it i love him more and more by time. IF i am still at the house i used to live, i would have bought him back home. And give him a warm comfy shelter. But look at my house now, seems it could not occupy an extra doggie anymore.

Boh yuan arrrrrrr

2008-09-07T03:37:00.002+08:00

When the girls were happily celebrating Steph's 20th birthday. I ffk-ed. I felt so much sorry. Just becaue i was waiting for calls the whole week, nobody called, and my this friend all the way came to KL, she needed my accompany.

Me and my this friend, Pei Lin. who came from Tawau, Sabah. She was the guest who shared my bed that night. HOHOHOHO.

Italiannies, where we went. Just the two of us. We ordered

Thin Crust pizza with smoked salmon slices, and cheese.

Carbonara pasta. Slurrrrrrrrp YUM!

Us.

I think, steph and the girls, were supposed to sit not far from us. Still, we all din bump into each other. Boh yuan ar! They had food leftover, us tooo!!! At last we had to dabao the extra 2 pieces of pizza. But they had nicer food than us lo. YORRRRRRRR steph belanja and i missed so many good food!!!! I regretted now :(

well, still had really great time with this 38 yet talkactive cum Tawau CNN, my ex-secondary classmate. She is the regular news reporter to me about all the happenings about Tawau.

Very random.

2008-09-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

When too much of trust given, you will start assuming in a positive way. To make you feel better. When too much of guessing done, you will start assuming that the fact is true. Losing the trust.

What about, some day, all the assumptions made are just assumptions, things happen in another way round, how should I confront it?

I feel the fear. For unspeakable reason.

August Update.

2008-08-31T00:47:00.005+08:00

Supposed to post more details on the luxury weekend. The connection is so damn fucking me off. Only moderate weather suits streamyx well, either too much of sunshine or too much of rain, makes it emo. 12345!

i need time to post all the pics up.

instead, update on happenings for the previous weeks.

Went to Sunway Lagoon with little cousins. The last time i went, i think should be about 10 years ago. Remain unchanged, still the same old man made sand coast, water slides, and thriller rides. They changed the entrance band into watch-like wrist band instead of paper wrist band. OHHHH i hate going to park during school holiday!!!! We had to queue for half an hour just to play a ride. We waited for the rain to stop, hid under the shelter for 2 hours there. ARGGHhhhh...

Went to visit the Philharmonic Hall at KLCC. Camera is not allowed. Did not manage to take much photos though. Outside of KLCC, saw this!
Tin can-built-potrait by F&N. cool huh?

Spontaneous plan sometimes it works.Right after 2162 tutorial, we girls decided to head to chilis, mid valley. Boss of the day - Ms Bao Li. hohoho. Boss to sook fern only.

Catched up the olympic fever. 5 of us purposely wore the specific 5 rings colour to match with the fuwa statues.
Obviously. my role was the blue fuwa, Beibei. Represent the aquatic sports.

Sichuan. The cat of Gary Cao, that was once boarding at my pet shop for 1 month. That cat was confrimed as Gary's pet. My collegue told me Gary was there few weeks ago came to collect back his cat personally. Which i missed the chance to meet him in person. GRrrrrrr.

Happy 51st birthday to Malaysia.

Damn it.

2008-08-26T19:18:00.003+08:00

The story i heard.

To be further clarified, basically, the abstract is like this.

H* drove a car to bukit bintang at one midnight. When H* was on the road, the car in front suddenly showed reverse light, press accelerator hardly. H* honked, oh well, two cars banged. The driver in front was a drunk man, B*. Two random persons came and offered help. Somehow that help was somewhat calling their big gang to start a fight. Unless H* pay them money. Patrol Mr P came.

'ada gaduh tak? oh tak ada.' drove away.

to settle this case without kena belasah by those people, H* paid.

Went to make report.

'sudah bayar kah? maksud sudah settled la!'

'orang itu mahu cari lawan'

'orang besar-besar, tak tahu lari?'

'kereta itu gostan tau?'

'biasanya hanya kereta belakang langgar depan, mana ada kereta depan langgar belakang, siapa boleh jadi saksi?'

'kawanku.'

'kawan tak boleh. siapa lagi?'

'tu guard dari sungei wang'

'okok pergi cari 10, 20 saksi datang'

Well, that was what i heard lo, whether it was really happened in such a way or what, as i said, to be further clarified.

IF it was true,

1- there are many tricky people out there, played dirty tricks to get money.
2- Don rely too much on Mr P.

Raya is coming, Beware of people asking for kopi.

Luxury stay during the weekend.

2008-08-25T22:25:00.003+08:00

I had real fun. Hope you all did too. And also hope to have such event going on more and more in future.

Girls, move on. Continue your path of chasing your dream. We will be meeting again.

our story

to

be

continued

..........

until

part

infinity

Bad day. Bad mood.

2008-08-21T22:47:00.002+08:00

Once a year, my teeth, to be more precise, it is my gum, gonna pain like hell. In chinese they call this symptom as 'fake fire'. It normally happens when the weather is extremely hot, when i ate too much of fried food, when i drink less water.

Kkwong said, it's tooth root inflammation.

Anyhow.

I am having bad toothache NOW!!!

i so wanna cry.

how can it be healed without spending a cent??? Please let me know. It is killing me now.

Silver. still shine. still glory.

2008-08-17T22:42:00.004+08:00

Tonight The moment which all the malaysians has been waiting for. After all these years, attended without any medal bringing back to homeland, this time the greatest hope to win for the First ever gold medal in Olympic.

Somehow, the dream broke after 39 mins the competition elapsed.

Upset, because badminton gold still does not belong to us yet.
Excited, finally a sliver, the only potential medal for malaysia in Olympic 2008.

Probably he was panic when he met the world no.1. Probably he is tired. Probably he did not get enough sleep the other night. Probably we have give too much pressure on him. Probably he was stressed because of uss. Probably he was too worry to disappoint us.

Mr Lee CW, don't be sad for losing the gold. You will be presented a huge reward when you are back. At least Malaysia has some 'face' in Olympic. No more empty handed.

I can see Malaysia on the rank of 53 now.

so pathetic.

To share.

2008-08-17T13:20:00.002+08:00

Us Against The World

You and I, we’ve been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like the world is against me
The sound of your voice baby that’s what saves me
When we’re together I feel so invincible

‘Cause it’s us against the world
You and me against them all
If you’re listening to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don’t ever see the day that I won’t catch you when you fall
‘Cause it’s us against the world tonight

There’ll be days we’ll be on different sides
But that doesn’t last too long
We find ways to get it on track
We know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel I can’t keep it together
then you hold me close and you make it better
When I’m with you I can feel so unbreakable

We’re not gonna break ‘cause we both still believe
We know what we’ve got and we’ve got what we need alright
We’re doing something right

Laugh.

2008-08-14T01:02:00.004+08:00

I found this is very funny. People just like to make fun of the abbreviations.

DKNY.

Which stands for

Donna Karan New York

One of the reputable fashion brand in the world.

Well,

D.K.N.Y.

can also stand for

Dai Kam Na Yeng (speak in canto)

translated term would be low class ah gua.

D.K.N.Y.

can also be said as

Di Ku Nei Yi (speak in mandarin)

translated term should be your inner garments.

zzzzzzzzzZZZ
Wish you have a good laugh.

Source: Pek See & Hui Hui

I found out a dkny at our class. a super annoying junior. the way he stares, seem like we have done something wrong. The way he speaks, like a primary school kid. The way he acts, OMG Damn so immatured. So wanna grant him few tight tight slaps. Better shut his mouth during tute.

Time alone.

2008-08-12T21:35:00.005+08:00

Since young, i told my sisters, cry cannot turn things better. When i grow older, i told my friends, cry cant even solve problem, so why cry?

Just recently. I found out that I drop tear quite easily. No matter it is a happy or sad moment. The tears just automatically fall from the eyes. I can't even control it. Probably it is because i rarely cry when i was a baby, the accumulated tears spread now. HAHA wth.

I used to feel that i am always the winner. But actually i am just beyond the line of being a loser.

I used to hate people cry. Sometimes, i am kinda hate myself of being so vulnerable. Always cry over things as tiny as sesame. My emotion fluctuates all the time. What's wrong with me?

I think most of the time, I put people's wants and conveniency in priority. I wish I would not be the burden to anybody else. But why people just don't even think of my side?

HaizzzzzZ

I look tough on the outside, but not inside.

I need my time alone. To think.

I guess i need my sleep. Everything will be fine the next day right? I am looking forward for sun rises.

p/s: oh ah bao, the sentence i said to u during the tute, i wasnt mean to curse u, just that wait until when u really get it only belanja, it is still wont be too late. right? =) Probably i put it in a wrong expression. Sorry!

Tagged by Sherene.

2008-08-11T01:21:00.002+08:00

Name: Yih Jing

Sisters: 2

Brothers: 0

Shoe size: 8, 9, 10 depends on US or UK size.

Height : 1.68m

Where do you live: Taman Desa

Favourite drinks: Milo

Favourite breakfast: Egg sandwich

Have you ever been on a plane?: Of cause yes!

Swam in the ocean : Yes. A year ago.

Fallen asleep at school : HAHA. All the time. Anywhere! Anytime!

Broken someone’s heart: Without my knowlegde, I apologize.

Fell off your chair : Rarely. oh boy it gonna be minor earthquake.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Must be some very important confirmation.

Saved e-mails: My mailboxes have 1k of accumulated emails not yet read. hehe.

What is your room like : Slight apple green white rectangular space.

What’s right beside you: Messy 2162 and math notes.

What is the last thing you ate: Shin instant noodles and ayamas fried chicken wings.

Ever had chicken pox: Yes. When i was in primary 2, during uncle's wedding in taiwan.

Sore throat: Seldom. I am a water storage tank. I need high consumption of H2O daily.

Stitches: Everywhere on my skin. I love to scratch my itchy arm and leg.

Broken nose: CHOIIII TOUCH WOOD. It is flat enough ady!

Do you believe in love at first sight: On object, yes! On human, never yet!

Like picnics: Yes but not under the hot sun!! abit windy with warm sunshine.

Who was the last person you danced with: With the girlfriends at kbox.

Last made you smile: Xiao Jing Teng at Kang Xi Lai Le, 5 sec ago. HAHAHAHA

You last yelled at: My mum. Hehe.

Today did you:

Talk to someone you like: Yes. Oh i like today so much!

Kissed anyone: My boy - doggie.

Get sick: suspecting flu with few symptom.

Talk to an ex: Ex-classmate, yes, plenty of them tim~

Miss someone: Of cause a yes!

Eat: I won't miss any of my meals. 3 meals per day!

Best feeling in the world: Effort made is being recognized and appreaciated.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals: Yes. When i wake up, all will be on the floor. :p

What’s under your bed: If i would to say yes, guess what will that be?

Who do you really hate: XXXXXXX, XXXXXXXX, XXXXXXX, u know who. hehe.

What time is it now?: 1.59am

Random:

Is there a person who is on your mind now : Yes. I just said i am missing somebodies. duh.

Do you have any siblings: yes. 2 sisters.

Do you want children: Under proper family plan, shall be having few kiddos in future.

Do you smile often: To be precise is laugh, showing my sparkling white teeth XD

Do you like your hand-writing: I do! but my friends do not. haizzzZ

Are your toe nails painted: i think they match my heels.

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: 5 stars or above hotel bed.

What color shirt are you wearing now: Green tee. Awful colour, arrrgh!

What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Working, bathing the last blackie dog.

I can’t wait till: I could possibly self finance on my expenses. Shopping without looking at price tag!!!!!

When did you cry last : an hour ago. Wathing Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni. Kesiannya..

Are you a friendly person: I think I am.

Do you have any pets: My boy, tortoise, goldfish.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: The center of my heart. Hehe :)

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: Should be. Or else why were we holding hands for?

Do you sleep with the TV on?: Yes. My living room has comfy air con to enjoy.

What are you doing right now?: Blogging while watching Taiwan series.

Have you ever crawled through a window?: When i was young. Either lost classroom key or house key. Or sneak into somewhere without approval.

Can you handle the truth?: Small, i don care. Big, i will scream!

Are you too forgiving?: I forget things after a night of sleep.

Are you closer to your mother or father?: on diff issues of coz.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?: my boy - doggie.

How many people can you say you’ve really loved?: Uncountable. Like the stars above the sky.

Do you eat healthy?: No. Look at my size!

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?: Again, ex-classmate, Yes, buckles of them.

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Yes. My parents and sis.

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: Myself with laptop. I need time alone.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: Loud and Noisy. That's me!

Are you confident?: Most of the time. I remain silent when i lose my confidence.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:

(i) Practise gymnastic.

(ii) Practise piano.

(iii) Learning the foul language.

(iv) Basketball Competition.

(v) Supervising the school as prefect.

5 things on my to-do list today:

(i) Watch 21 and sex and the city.

(ii) Meet the girlfriends

(iii) Study 2162 for tmr test.

(iv) Do math assignment for submission tmr.

(v) Watch and download Taiwan series.

5 snacks I enjoy:

(i) Corn crackers.

(ii) Puff!

(iii) Cupcakes.

(iv) Pudding/jelly.

(v) Anything with cheese.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

(i) Rescue the poor and needy.

(ii) Buy private jet, private yacht and hire driver.

(iii) Buy land properties keep for investment.

(iv) Still sleep, eat, bath, shit as before.

(v) Build my own kingdom!!! I am my boss. HAHAHA!

5 of my bad habits:

(i) Very LAZY!

(ii) Does not respect to the old.

(iii) Emotional imbalance.

(iv) Love to spend on unnecessary stuffs.

(v) Likes to sleep all the time!!!

5 people to tag:

People that do not update their blog. hehe.

1- Chin Ying

2- Bao Li

3- Pauline

4- Sue May

5- Shu Qin

Numb.

2008-08-09T01:52:00.003+08:00

MY RIGHT ARM IS TEMPORARILY PARTIALLY UNUSABLE!!!

gosh.....

Since thursday morning we had no lab, i with my uni girlfriends went for ball games. Badminton plus basketball. Without proper warm up, and lack of exercise, it turned out to be cramped here and there. My back and especially my right arm arrrrrghhhhh........

Now, i cant hardly do my basic living activities,

for example,

Brushing my teeth. The twisting and turning motion suffer my arm alot. Do you understand the feeling when your bicep and tricep became very tight, and you cant even straighten you arm with all the power you have. I can't even hold up my dog. The very first time i feel the hard time of brushing my teeth. Damn!

Somehow, after all the exercising and sweating, i felt so much refreshing!! Shall do more next time!!!

p/s: pray that no big doggies come for grooming later. Or else my right arm gonna have A BIG TIME!!!!

What's in her mind?

2008-08-05T18:52:00.006+08:00

You know what. I really don't know what is in my mum's mind. Everyone mum wants their children to get home safe and sound and also as earlier as possible. Somehow my mum does not i guess. Instead she will keep buzzing my phone call me to go home early but she won't do anything like fetching me home or something. My class finished at 5 today. Suppose that i can take any rapid kl from sunway to kl then interchange another bus back to tmn desa. But i purposely missed 2 buses that stop by mid valley, i just wanted to take another bus which stop by the main road outside my taman. So that i can call my mum up to ask her fetch me from there. Who knew, she said once she moved the car somebody gonna park the space, and her car gonna park very far away from home. She wanted me to walk home if cant wait for bus. I WAS SO DAMN PISSED OFF AT THAT MOMENT! It was 6.15. and i have my personal stuff very heavy flow. And you ask me to walk back home?????? I just wanna go home early to change pad, to study for tomorrow math. Instead SHE IS WORRYING ABOUT HER PARKING LOT!!!!!!

I tell you, if you fetch me home, there will be some parking lot left for you, because god knows you do a good deed.

I believe in god.

She says that 'You have to take these (obstacles) all up while you are studying'. What is the logic? WHY? Why do i have to? I have my choice to say no way, do i?

Day after i will forget about all this. My mum is still a good mum afterall. Just her logical thinking abit outrageous.

Extra request: Do not have to comment on this post. Just wanna throw tantrum over here.

Be a puppy, can I?

2008-08-03T00:45:00.005+08:00

(I think someone must have mislead that the cleavage was the cleavage of my boobs. Opps. you are wrong. It is just the cleavage of my bending leg. andrea!!!! hahahahaHAHAHA yorrrrrrrr)

Saturday, my working day. The day where i work and get paid.

I am not a certified Professional Groomer. So i was not allow to trim, cut or shave. Well, basically what i do is, after showering the pet, and blow them dry, clean ears, spray on perfume at last. The rest of the steps will be passed on to my other colleagues.

Just today, they let me try on cutting nails and shaving the paw fur. The most difficult jobs. which has high risk of getting bitten by either dogs, cats or even rabbit!!! You see how rabbit chew carrot then you will somehow know how strong their teeth are. Warning: Don't bully rabbit although they seem tame, but they do bite!

This tiny poodle puppy be the 1st guinea pig of mine. Firstly i needed to shave off his paw fur. First second he kept making annoying yell for no apparent reason, the next second he already fell asleep on my lap. Look down. SEEE how cute is this poodle huh?

when he stopped yelling, i thought god must have sent him to a peace place. touch wood. CHOIII. he is still alive just fell asleep. You know puppy's daily routine is sleep and eat.

Probably i just took too long time for shaving his 4 little paws. Sorry little poody...

PC fair 2008 - revisited.

2008-08-02T01:51:00.004+08:00

Again the blast of PC fair II 2008 comes to town this weekend. I picked friday to go. I thought friday going to be less packed. Who knewwww... i was so shocked by the people at the venue and the people queuing to buy lrt tickets. The crowd automatically formed a S shape queue with invisible dividers just to buy ticket at the manual ticket selling counter. wtt.

I felt abit heartache when i withdrew $200 from atm. MY money arrrr..... the money i earned with blood, scars and sweat. The purpose of withdrawing my kesian money - to Buy an external harddisk Seagate - 160gb and A Kaspersky antivirus software.

I tried on the external harddisk. Only i found out that my laptop could not detect the harddisk easily. Was that my problem? Did i make the right choice on that??? Hope my money worths for what it has been spent on.

Oh i bought the antivirus software, can be used for 3 PC users. My laptop and my sis's, that software can still occupy another user. Waiting for grab. Selling that single vacancy at RM26. License for 1 year. Call me for more details =)

I am so broke right now.

若你懂我; 这一秒

2008-07-31T23:05:00.002+08:00

到不了范玮琪

你眼睛会笑弯成一条桥
终点却是我永远到不了
感觉你来到是风的呼啸
思念像苦药竟如此难熬
每分每秒

我找不到我到不了
你所谓的将来的美好
我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒

我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好

我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到

Fall into this song so deeply lately. It should be a hit in Kbox. Must listen!!!

is everyone's mum the same?

2008-07-29T22:58:00.003+08:00

I wonder why my mum loves to tell me that i should experience the life of the poor. And therefore i should not have so much of enjoyment, and take bus instead of driving to uni.

What the *tut*

WHY? WHY? WHY?

It is not that we are the rich family and living luxurious life. And why still need me to live like the poor? How to define poor? Who says no poor is driving to uni? Driving to somewhere is due its conveniency but not to enjoy life. People who study in monash should know that what kind of public transport are we having around sunway? Plus, our house is so far from sunway, we have a spare car parking outside, nobody using it, WHY still don't let me drive yet?

why cant my mum like some other mums? to be open minded abit?

when people gets older, the kepala semakin keras.

Grrrrrrrr.

It's Sony.

2008-07-26T23:32:00.002+08:00

To whom that are aiming for Sony Ericsson K-series mobile, change your focus on C-series now. It is officially changed to C for Cybershot lately. It gives shaper, clearer, focused picture.

The one in malaysia market now,

C902.

No doubt. I have chinese in my blood.

2008-07-20T22:25:00.004+08:00

I was walking pass Jalan Alor this evening, to the car park at the another end of the road. As you know, Jalan Alor is a street full of local Malaysian food stalls there. Whole row of restaurants with the SAME type of food. Char kuey teow, ikan bakar, satay, rojak, durian, coconut, nasi lemak, wan tan mee, Gai fan, and alottttttttttttt more. Very competitve among them i guess. So there will be people coming out from their own restaurant, taking their half torn, browish menu to you, "promoting" their specialty.

In cantonese, between a chinese lady and me.

The auntie: siu jie, yiu sek meh ye? hou hou sek gah.

Me: *wave hand expressing a NO in silence*

The auntie: gei dou wei ar? 4 wei ar? lei li dou cho, hou liong gah.

Me: *giving an unpleasant smile expressing a NO in silence*

The auntie: ah moi ar, mahu makan apa? sini apa pun ada. semua banyak sedap. marilah duduk sini.

Me: *walk away in an incredible fast speed*

This kinda situation did not happen just once, but FEW times at that damn street.

For your information, I DO NOT LIKE PEOPLE TO BE MISUNDERSTOOD ABOUT MY ORIGIN. wth. HARLO everyone, I am a chinese. I speak chinese. I write chinese. I understand chinese. OKAY? I do not answer to you because your food does not seem attractive to my stomach, that's all.

And also, not to be offensive, i do not think those who speaks malay, will be eating at those restaurants, so what's the point of you speaking malay to me or rather to the customers??

donkeys!!!

The Littlest Thing

Contented.

爱过。等过。难过

丁噹-你為什麼說謊

我也能被感動

What Are Words

Movie. Life. Story

恕我不坦白 :(

说出来

Essere morto, e risuscitare dai morti

I am looking for YOU!

It is not said but I always know

群

找自己

当爱与不爱

不想說明 只想反應

Girls' talk

执着

Read the past.

hope. unchanged.

Simply because I care.

=x

True friendship comes when the silence between two people is comfortable.

To my friends.

uncertain...........

It doesn't matter!

Not yet a shopaholic!

Regret.

Rare species.

Sorry, I take, can't give, in this matter.

肉麻。骨痹

Hakuna matata.

Easter trip!

Give a break laaaaaaaaa

Allow him to be Frank.

Friends are Forever.

Hmmm.

KoalaRooland

That morning before I fly.

HEIYO

lone ranger.

少八为妙

幸运一头牛喔！

New attached song.

De-tour

Compaq Presario CQ40-134AX Notebook PC

Byebye 2008. Hello 2009.

Christmas 2008.

Early season greetings

Feed the animals.

miss x 10000000000000000

life at the mill.

Here is the starting point.

Geography lesson.

Long lost sis.

Getting myself an intern.

A Moment With Your Kakiis

Strange encounter.

I've got it!

Free like a bird.

I am.

My big day

DIY cooking.

To share.

Sleep-over Companion needed.

Wake me up when October ends.

e-MooN

Superwoman-to-be

Official membership to the Twenties.

suei daoooooooooooo

sick.

No fate.

Hairy Furry dear.

Facts of Australian Silky Terrier

Hardwork to share.

Fall behind.

Earth's due date.

To be a better man.

Nota bagi saya.

Be responsible!

不想說明　只想反應